Beautiful Tragedy

Chapter 27

Last chapter my darlings. Btw I am starting a new book soon, and I hop you guys will read it and I promise it'll be better than this one.

------> Wedding dress for Alex, bridesmaid dresses, cake

"Oh my God!" I said as I stared blankly ahead.

There he was. James, he was standing on the baseball field with candles lit up spelling out the words, " Will you marry me?" He walks up towards me and I'm grinning in the biggest possible way. He gets on one knee and begins to speak.

"Alexandra, I love you more than life itself. You are the fire that lights my life. I am entirely grateful that I had the pleasure of meeting you. I love you from day one and I will for an infinite number of days." This is where i started to cry, I couldn't believe what was happening. "Not only have you shown me love and dedication, but you have shown me the strength at which you have. You've shown me that to be happy I have to trust not only you but myself. When we first began dating, we both needed a fresh start, and we were willing to give each other just that. You, Alex, have taken me on a journey that is unforgettable, so will you please allow me the honor of leading you on a journey that will last forever?"

I ran into his arms and said yes. I couldn't help but crying and I knew that he would take care of me always and forever, and I could honestly say the same.

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"Mom! This dress has to be perfect and I really need this opinion so please pick one! " I said annoyed. I was trying on wedding dresses and my mom sucks at giving opinion.

"Oh calm down, James will love you even if you were in a clown suit. " she tried to lighten the mood. I tried to stand but ground and stay mad but I laughed.

"Your right, but please pick one. " I said calmly while looking at my reflection in the mirror.

"I like the other one . It flatters your body better. " she smiled and pointed at the dress. I nodded and took my dress off so that I could go to the florist to check on my arrangements. My wedding was literally in 2 days and I know "procrastination" but that's just me. Anyways I picked the colors teal and white for my wedding because well it was the only color James and I could agree on.

I started to have anxiety every day closer to the wedding because what if It wasn't how I want or I trip walking down the aisle or what if I eat and drop it on my dress! It's all I could think about and and it wouldn't go away, so Shiann took me to the Spa and treated me to a relaxing massage.

"Oh this feels so amazing. Thanks for taking me. I really needed it." I spoke through the head holder or whatever it's called of the massage table to Shiann who was getting a massage along with Monika.

"No problem. Besides we could've used it anyways. Right Mon?" Shiann said.

"Oh yeah. So how's the wedding coming along Alex?" Monika said with curiosity.

"Great, oh yeah and I totally forgot and I know it's last minute but can you guys be my brides maids?" I tried to laugh as I said it but it came out sounding kind of smushed because of the way my head was.

"Yeah totally, but don't you think it's late for dresses?" Shiann said with complete understanding.

"No, because I already got them knowing you'd say yes. " I said knowing their faces would look shocked. Too bad I couldn't see.

"Really Alex? You remember the dresses but forget to ask? What if I said no?" Monika said through a smile.

"Oh stop, you already know I forget easily and you wouldn't say no to the dress, which may I say is totally gorgeous. " I sat up to turn over and relaxed again.

"I'll be the judge of that but you are right. I would've said yes. If I'm gonna be there anyways, might as well be where people look." Monika laughed knowing that she trounced so conceited.

"Uhh it's my wedding Mon. " I laughed.

"I know but doesn't mean I can't get some attention."

"Oh wow. " I laughed and stared at the ceiling.

"Oh I'm just kidding, I would never steal attention from you on your wedding day."

I laughed and we finished our massage and I took them to see their dresses, which of course they thought were gorgeous.

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Wedding Day

It was my wedding day and I was about to walk down the aisle. I felt like my stomach was gonna fall to the ground. The nervous feeling wouldn't go away. But I have to because I love James. I was trying to take deep breaths and fucking Monika and Shiann walk up and scare me.

"Boo!" They said in unison. They smiled but saw my face and asked what was wrong.

"I'm scared." I admitted.

"Sweetie, everyone is scared to get married but I can see that you and James will be together." Shiann said.

"And if you guys don't or you don't make it down that aisle, I will be there for you." Monika said with innocence running through her eyes. "That goes for me too." I heard Shiann say.

Music started playing and that was their cue to walk down the aisle. "That's your cue." I smiled. They began to do an elegant walk. Just as I was about to step out to go to the aisle an arm pulled me aside. I turned around to see Jack.

"What are you doing here?!" I said pulling him hiding the both of us.

"I can't let you do this. He's not the one for you. I am. I always have been." He said tears running down his face. I could see the pain in his eyes and i knew he wasn't lying.

"You didn't even say goodbye to me before I left. You gave me a note and I never saw you again." I said trying to keep the tears from pouring out.

"I am not proud of that. But you don't understand. David blackmailed me." He said pouring his feelings out and I knew I had to be strong.

"With what?!? Please tell me what was it that was worth losing me for." I gritted my teeth and now my stomach was in a knot.

"It doesn't matter but i shouldn't have given up because now that I look at it, it's not a big deal. And I need you back in my life! Please!" He pled looking me in the eyes.

"Why should I? You never came back for me! And I waited."

"James, he wouldn't let me come. Said if I ever came back I'd regret it. " he was so distraught.

"Why would he do that?" I said completely confused.

"He always wanted the things I had ever since we're teens and one day we got into a huge fight and that's why my mom sent me to Australia to my Uncle. And that's why I haven't came back. He sent me an invitation and I knew it was now or never. Can I please just have one more chance?" Jack looked weak and just horrible.

I had a decision to make and I have to do what's right for me. So I left. I left James at the altar and married Jack because he was my only love, and maybe I was just trying to make what I had with Jack with James. Of course I felt horrible about it, I told Shiann and Monika. Jack and I moved to Australia and have lived such a good life, and I had 3 kids, two boys and a girl.

I know what you are thinking, it's what everyone is thinking, "I'm a bitch" but you know what? That's fine because I'm a bitch that followed her heart.