A kiss is still a kiss....

A Kiss is Not Just A Kiss

•••A kiss is just not a kiss when it is not with someone you like"
  Later that day we are sitting in his kitchen when Max walks in. I look over and do an little smile.
  " Hey how are y- who's this?"
I fiddle with my hoodie and look down and the table
    " This is Olivor my friend."
I look up nervously and smile a little and do a small wave. And speak quietly.
    "Hi"
Max smiles and I smile back. I think to myself.
     " I am going to live him"
I look at Max
    " How old are you?"
He looks at me
    " Oh... I am 20"
I look at him in shock.
     " Oh.. I am 18 my birthday is in october"
He smiles.
     " Cool."
I nod and go back on my phone. I peek over a little and see Toni and Max smiling at me and my face goes red and I quickly look at my phone.
Hours pass and Max had left and it's just Toni and I. I walk up to him.
    " So are you going to Con?"
He looks at me and does that... 'Duh'  smile.
      " duhh.. I am definitely not staying here while y'all have the fun"
I smile and put my hands on the counter.
I walk over to him and turn him around and kiss him. My face gets super super red as I back away. He looks at me blood red like me and I hold my hands in front of me and put my head down. He smiles a little.
I look up.
      " Do not make it wierd please so...what do you want to do?"
He looks at me with a smile. I get red. And fiddle more.
     " Well... Let's go to the park. We can walk there and bring Grady"
I still keep looking at up deciding if I actually want to go on a walk.
     " Actually I gotta head home. Uhm yea sorry I got work to do uhm see ya tomorrow"
I quickly walk out terrified of what i just did and I keep thinking of the day when Josh kissed me forcibly. God he is so abrupt I swear I hate him. Then again the relationship between us is over why am I even thinking about this... ah whatever I am tired.
I get in my bed and lay down looking at the ceiling and end up falling alseep very slowly then...Boom. Alseep.
I wake up to numerous messages from people. Mainly Toni and Maxi. I smile and stretch.
I keep thinking to myself and josh and how Toni actually cared. Just brush it off damn it's over.
I get out of bed and walk downstairs. Huh twelve-thirty really. Someone knocks on my door and I open it and a huge smile crosses my face and I do not even notice the smile until Toni smiled. I cough.
     " uhm come in "
He walks in and I stand in front of the cabinet trying to figure out what I want. I just pull out a pop tart and eat.
     " So uhm Con is this weekend and I started packing and figured out what I am doing but I still have a few little things then I am done how about you"
He chuckles a little and I keep eating.
      " I have been on a con cronch for a few weeks now... been excited to go there forever."
I smile and throw my wrapper away.
     " Do you want to hang out today....I can finish my plans tonight whenever I get back"
He smiles.
    " Sure let's go get Tyler and we can leave he'd be happy... uhm since he has to leave early tonight because he has to get up early I was wondering... maybe we can watch some scary movies tonight..at my place...if that is okay with you"
I look at him and smile softly I have never smiled like this to anyone. Ever!
      " I would love to I'll bring the snacks and drinks and my pillow and blanket we.. well I can stay the night aswell"
He smiles softly and we walk out and go and get Tyler. Toni and I mess around while walking and we walk in town and stop and look through the windows at stuff and I see Toni smiling as I see a very adorable dog.
I turn around and smile and blush and we continue walking till we get to Tyler's house.
      " grab your swim trunks and a towel were going swimming"
I put my hand on the rim of the door as he stands there smiling.
      " We'll stop back at my house and grab my swim suit and then Toni's... I am going to warn you yes I am a Male but i still have a one piece swim suit. It's neon green. So uhm yea"
They smile and we walk to my house and then to Toni's. I grabbed a bookbag with sunscreen and drinks food and extra clothes and a towel. Everyone else did the same.
I actually love walking so we walk there. No one complains because Toni and I walk to work A LOT!
I am walking around with my swimsuit on and a large band T over it and my burks.i have a fanny pack to put my chapstick and money and keys and phone in. Because were going out to eat afterwards. On me! Because I am nice.
Ya know I have known Toni for a few months but have talked to him for only about a month and I am falling deeply in love with him I already made the first move and I am about to make another one.
I grab his hand as my face is super red and Tyler looks over and smiles and looks straight ahead smiling still.
Toni grips my hand a little tighter and we continue walking. As we arrive to the beach I smile and run to a spot. I lay out my towel and put down my fanny pack down in the shade and I put my bookbag down. I take off my shirt and wait for the boys
     " C'mon guys your too slow jesus I'll meet you there slow pokes"
I run to the water and dunk my whole body in and then lay in it smiling as the sun is hitting me. It's pretty hot. The 90's today... the water feels nice. I love it. The boys finally arrive and we all swim.
Hours later and I mean hours we finish. There are bathrooms. These guys are so kind. They have male bathrooms, women, and gender nuetral. Ah love you.
I walk in the gender neutral bathroom and change into.. okay yes I may be a male but I can still wear makeup, swim suits and leggings. Shut up. If Toni gets to wear spandex shorts and long Ts then i get to wear this. If ya don't like it kiss mah ass
I put on black leggings, my white friends hoodie and my rainbow Van's and mess up my hair. I put my fanny pack on and my bookbag and we stop at a place to eat. This has been great so far. Tyler ends up leaving after dinner then we get to Toni's house and cuddle on the couch watching The Walking Dead. My favourite show literally.
Don't worry I packed clothes an1d everything. During the show I get close to him and cuddle in my blanket and hold his hand and feel the warmth of his hand and I feel him smiling behind me and he squeezes. I smile and watch the show.
I turn towards him and kiss him...again. His soft lips against mine and the warmth. I get so nervous and as I pull away I blush badly.
     " A kiss is not just a kiss if it isn't with someone you like"
I fall asleep in his shoulder and he carry's me to his bed and we sleep.
I do not know why he did not just leave me on the couch but his bed.
I wake up the next day to someone in the kitchen. I walk downstairs and rub my eyes. I feel hands on my shoulders and I smile.
I think to myself.
' hey a kiss is not just a kiss if it is not with someone you...love"
I turn around and hug Toni trying not to cry.
"can I tell you something"