"that's not how a princess would act."
"yeah but i guess thats how your little princess would act."
"yeah. my little slutty princess."
i never really want to do it, but it has become the only way i feel pretty enough to be loved. my boyfriend and i go at it every single time we hang out. we can blame it on the quarantine, but we both know it's just me.
i always get really sad afterwards, which is strange due to the endorphins released after the act is complete. i feel like it is all i am good for sometimes, especially with how worshipped the female body is. don't get me wrong, i'm flattered, but you don't marry a woman because of her bra size.
deep down, i know i am more than a sex doll, and. i know my boyfriend cherishes all parts of me. it's hard, though, when all you really want is to be held and given all of someone's attention to.
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how to feel okay
Aléatoirethis is kind of a diary/content drop for when i get sad. join me in my journey out of my numb state of mind.
