I suppose no sort of happiness lasts forever because that just wouldn't be what life is. Ehsaan and I had become so close it we where pretty unseperable. It was difficult not seeing him everyday and I believe that regardless of all the odds those two years of my life would have been the worst. You would have already gathered that pain and suffering had become second nature to me. I was isolated with no one to express my emotions to as no one understands my feelings or my views apart from Ehsaan. I still had not revealed my relationship with with Ehsaan to Raven. What an awful best friend I am! I think a part of me still believed that this relationship would not last very long.
Regardless of my loneliness I had always kept myself busy, by cycling, studying extra long hours, being active, anything to take my mind off of reality for a while. Ehsaan and I had our own petty disbutes which were over in less than a day, we just apologise to one another and except that compromising is key to our relationship.
Ehsaan had always tried to make me feel special never the less by giving me flower s, gifts and plenty of love especially on my eighteenth birthday. It all started at midnight when I got an unexpected phone call. " Happy birthday my angel! I can't believe you are finally eighteen, I just want to hug you and never let go. Can I come over and see you?" I instantly replied "Yes you can but I might fall asleep very soon as I am really tired. Please no expensive gifts or anything like that your love and support is all I ever need" Ehsaan muttered "OK, OK I will try but I won't promise anything" I exclaimed "well it's better than nothing". Ehsaan literally came to my room in a blink of an eye and gave me the most passionate kiss I have ever received. Ehsaan has never forced himself on me or had never been to fast with me. He has given me a shoulder to cry on and love just doesn't happen to people like me. I will be grateful fir eternity. We spent the rest of the day in each others arms and made the most of us being with one another.
Presentday
If only I could tell you that things had become better between me and my lover, but then I wouldn't be lying to anyone else but myself...
Isn't subrins a confusing girls, first she feels lonliness then hapiness and un deserving. She has even hidden her realtionship from her best friend! What are your plans this Xmas and new year? I am planning on studying this Xmas break what about you guys? Comment, vote and share with others. xx
