Permanent Occurrences

Refuse

I refuse to do any pretending,
Who's on your side when they talk about you & the one that you're missing,
Go Figure, I'm not tryna be out of the picture,
Maybe If I was in sport mode I could capture the feelin like I captured the image,
I can't do tit for tat this is business, I've realized I could've invested more in you,
& I don't do the gimmicks, Gotdamn this time I took you serious, I thought we were on it I thought we were in it just to say you didn't feel close to begin with,
I refuse to be bitter with love,
But it just doesn't feel right with someone different that it's Coming from,
& the only change that I know of is not knowing where I'ma end up I was open to organize every mix up I tried to get fixed up,
Just to keep forgetting, the things I remember,
All I know is I was down thinking I knew where we'd end up,
I refuse to let feelings & my maturity merge,
It's hard to do business when you're Low on courage, for every prince there's a portion,
It's like, I might send the ones in the circle something that I put my heart & my soul to,
Hit me back within 2 minutes like it ain't personal,
But I just respond in a positive manner & thank them for being supportive,
I refuse to let the Past talk,
But I wish that me & my past could have one last talk,
Nothing lasts, more than your first remarks,
Things fell so hard, I don't know if we can pick back up where we left off,
I thought we'd be walking out with dubs but they really stood for Where We Went Wrong,
It's not about what they try to say or do to me, it's about who they are,
I refuse to let what I've known become all that I know,
I been packed with the system the way it comes with the control,
Things gettin out of hand like low supply high demand I try to sleep if I can it's just when I wake you're not here, & now I'm just all alone,
I get it,