NEVER CAN I EVER

CHAPTER SEVEN

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I envy Hunter, he has a crush on Amber even when he knows he'll never have her, much like my crush on Thea.

At least he doesn't have to pretend to be in love with the Devil's Reincarnation.

Amber has long brunette hair that cascades down her back and blue-green eyes. She has a great body -not lying, but my heart belongs to Thea.

Vivian is also beautiful -even a blind person can tell, but her personality is awful, pure torture. She has blonde hair and blue eyes.

Hunter has forest-green eyes and short strawberry-blonde hair, he's what you'd call a player.

Until he met Amber.

Now, he only does it to distract himself from Amber.

He's just digging his own grave.

She'll never fall in love with a player.

An awkward cough causes me to jerk away happily from Vivian. Whoever did that is my new best friend.

"Hiedi," I hear a familiar voice breathe,"Heidi Williams," she says clearing her throat.

I whip my head in the direction of her soothing voice: Thea Whyte.

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Another memory.

I stare at the blank hospital ceiling in shock.

A memory about Oceana.

Not just any memory, A memory about the first time I saw her again.

I wonder what happened after that. What did she think of Vivian? How did we start dating?

"Typical," I hear a voice chuckle darkly from my right.

I quickly snap my head over ti them to be faced with the very person I've been thinking about.

Vivian-Rose Brookes.

"I've always been invisible to you, haven't I?" she asks as she closes her eyes in silent pain, facing the familiar bland ceiling.

How did I not notice someone in the room?

How could I have slipped up like that?

I whisper her name softly as she nervously twiddles her thumbs.

She seems different somehow.
Less cunning.
Less underhanded.
Less Vivian.

She seems different somehow.
More innocent.
More normal.
More Rose.

Were the last four months really that life changing?

She shakes her head with a soft smile.

"You dyed your hair,"I whisper, reaching over to touch her long red hair.

"I did," she laughs happily.

She looks down at her hair before taking my hand in hers.

"It's different," I continue slowly.

"I know," she smiles.

"You're different," I continue.

"I know."

"You're," I pause, searching my vocabulary for the perfect word to describe her as, "happier," I say eventually.

"I'm getting there," she forces a laugh.

I look down at her small pale hand in mine. I desperately want to remember everything now. Whatever happened in those four months changed me. Changed me so much that it feels like the old me doesn't belong.

What happened? What happened to me? What happened to Vivian? What happened to Christopher? What happened to my life?

"You know," Vivian breaks me out from my thoughts. "You might not remember or understand, but," she takes a deep breath.

"Don't blame her. Congratulate her for killing him.
In the end, his death eased to lives of so many, even by a bit."

I watch in confusion as Vivian gets up from the nearby chair and approaches the door silently. She takes a shaky breath as she continues with her back towards me.

"And please Grayson, whatever you do,
don't trust Christopher Love."

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During lunch, Vivian thought it best to decorate Hiedi with the cafeteria's disgusting mashed potatoes.

Hiedi.

The girl pretending to be Thea. She looks almost identical to Thea. She might just be her, fortunately, I have a way to find out.

"Let me help you," I say grabbing Hunter's ice-cold soda and pouring it on her.

Her clothes cling to her body, her outline revealed. Would Matt go through all that trouble to make a Thea clone have to exact same body shape and bruises?

"Dude! What happened to your arm?" Hunter comment loudly.

Scars. All over her body. The most recent one trails from above her right eyebrow to the side of her chin, barely missing her ear. This is definitely Thea. My Love...

No.

I have to push her away. 

I can't be in love with my destined enemy. Never can I ever...

"Looks like you haven't changed after three months in jail," I say smugly.

I'm sorry, Love.

"You went to jail!?" Vivian screeches yet again. "But you're a nerd!"

Little does she know...

"Yeah," I smirk. "Brian had it rough."

If Brian wasn't dead, I would take out my revenge for hurting you, Love.

She mutters something under her breath I couldn't quite hear.

"What was that?" I ask, walking up to her.

Just a little bit more...

"Shut up. Shut up! SHUT UP!" she screams.

Please,Love, don't make me feel anymore guilty.

"Now Thea, what would mommy think about your attitude -if that's your real name," I tease. "this would be your second time in juvie right?"

"Shut the hell up!" she exclaims.

Please punch me.
I deserve it.

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My heart pounds as I jerk awake in shock.

Not bothering to wipe away any of the perspiration coating my body, I clutch my heart with my right hand.

Whatever happened in those four months changed me.

Changed me so much that it feels like the old me doesn't belong.

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Good Day Humans,

I apologize for the late update.

What do you think of Vivian?

What about Christopher Love, is he as evil as everyone assumes?

Or is he, like Vivian was, just misunderstood?

Yours sincerely,

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