Mikasa Ackerman has always been known for a serious, stone cold personality. She opens up to someone that's not Eren or Armin, and suddenly her whole world changes- her perception of love, will, and emotions.
A small Jeankasa fanfic. I'm not into m...
Jean wakes me up. It looks like it's 7pm. The sunset is right in front of us. I rub my eyes and admire the view.
"Didn't think you'd want to miss it." he says softly.
"I'm sorry for falling asleep on you. You looked sad offering to take me back." I apologize.
"It's okay, Mikasa. I kinda slept too. Who knows who might've seen us." he says.
What? What if someone saw us and told everyone? I'll be looked at as a softie and a toy. But I don't really care. I'll probably put a blade to their throat.
I don't say anything.
I still rest against him.
"I wish I could freeze this moment, right here, right now, and live in it forever." he says.
"What? Why?" I ask, confused.
"Life is short. You have to enjoy every possible good moment." he replies.
I let those words process.
"I think now should be the time I tell you, Mikasa."
I wait for him to continue.
"I like you. A lot. Since we were 13 and 14. And I don't plan on stopping. You caught my eye, and your personality caught my heart. It's okay if you don't like me back. I just wanted to tell you before I don't get the chance to."
We're 15 and 16 now. He's liked me for 2 whole years? I have no comment. I don't know how to deal with this. He gives life a purpose. These words he says. He gives me a purpose to live as well. Crying is only natural. Life is short, enjoy it. 'It hurts to see you cry'.
I give him the warmest smile I can. I feel so relaxed and safe, even when there's literal titans within our walls.
I still have no comment. except I take my free arm and wrap it against him. "Okay." I say.
"You'll allow it?" he asks.
"I don't know what to feel, Jean. But thank you. Thank you for giving me more purposes to live." I reply.
"I understand. I respect your decisions, no matter what you do." He hugs me back with his free arm.
"Mikasa, why are you on the roof with horseface?" A boy says.
Horseface. Eren!
"Eren?" I look down and I see him and Armin.
"Shut your face, Jaeger! I'll kill you!" Jean says.
He stands up and tells me to get on his back. This sounds like fun, so I do.
He runs downstairs to Eren.
"Mikasa? Why are you on his back?" Armin says. "You would usually run after the person."
I hide my face in my scarf. I usually would. But I'm soft towards Jean now. After every moment we shared, after every gesture. I care deeply about him. But they can't know that.
Jean puts me down and looks down at Eren.
(BIG TALK FOR A FELLA WITH A SMALL C-) jk.
"We spent the day together because you couldn't." Jean says.
"Mikasa! Did he try anything on you?" Eren says.
"No." I reply.
"Why do you think I'd try something on her!?" Jean exclaims, almost yelling.
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We eat dinner together. Eren, Armin and I. I missed them. I haven't seen them since breakfast.
Eren starts another fight with Jean, but this time I have to stop them.
"Please stop," I say, while I pull Eren's hand off of Jean's shirt. I hold it after it drops and we look at eachother. He backs off.
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I turn back around to Armin, and-
"DAMNIT!" Jean grabs Eren's shirt.
"FUCK YOU! I BACKED OFF!" Eren screams back.
"I DON'T CARE!! I'M SO JEALOUS!"
He touched Eren when he was vulnerable to it. Not today. Jean's about to punch Eren when I catch the punch.
"If you hurt Eren, I'll hurt you." I say, calm but serious.
He looks away and backs off.
I repeat the scenario in my head because I didn't understand what they were saying. Now I do. Why's he jealous?
I'm not hungry anymore. I give my leftovers to Sasha and I was gonna sit next to Jean, who looks distressed, but Eren stops me. I walk with him and Armin to their dorm. I sit on Eren's bed, reading one of Armin's books. Eren sits next to me.
"Do you like Jean?" He asks.
"No, not as a crush." I say.
"Don't lie to me, Mikasa. I saw you guys on the roof all cuddled up." he says, raising his voice a bit.
"I rejected him and comforted him." I said.
"Mikasa, you can date anyone, but just not horseface." He says. "He's a douche."
"I think Mikasa and Jean would be a nice couple," Armin says. "I've seen the way he acts around her."
"What do you mean?" I ask.
"You make him happy," he continues, "your faces shine differently than when you talk to other people. Especially him."
"I see." I say. Does my face really do that?
"Tch. I have to go to the washroom. Good luck with horseface, Mikasa." Eren walks out.
"Mikasa," Armin says, "I know you like Jean. It's okay. I won't tell Eren."
"I don't know what I feel, Armin. If I die or he dies, we'll be hurt. I don't want to feel hurt." I reply.
"But do you want to feel happy? Mikasa, I know you care about him. It's no different if we lose him."
He has a point. Do I deserve happiness? After all the tragedy in my life? I feel like I should, but something tells me not.
I don't say anything, but Armin understands my thoughts.
"I'm gonna go back to my dorm, or else Sasha's gonna run everywhere looking for me," I say. "Tell Eren I said goodnight."
