I Hate That I Love My Bestfriend

Chapter 4

Sofia's POV

It's been 3 days. 3 days of my worse life. Okay, a bit exaggerated. But no, it's the truth when you lost the only person you love. I don't know if I already lose him, but in our case, it looks like.

After what just happened between us, he didn't bother coming back to me. And that's the thing that makes me cry on that every 3 fucking days. So in total, I got consecutive 4 days including the day when it did happen, having red and puffy eyes that no one knows why. My parents got so worried about me because they didn't know why I'm crying. But when my mom said to me that Blake is always asking her if I was okay or not, she did understand now why. She said to him that no, I'm not. I silently thanked my mom when she said that. I just hope that maybe Blake will have some guilt of what's happening to me right now because of what he just did to me.

I just don't understand though, why he's not coming to me nor speaking to me? I mean, come on! I know it's hard but he needs to man up for fuck's sake! What, does he want that I'm the first one who talk to him? Hell to the fucking no I'm going to that. And we're talking about Blake here. Blake known as the bad boy in our school, not really bad though, they just looked at him that way. And they all know that he's tough and he can do anything, that's why most students in our school wants to be friends with him. He's known for playing girls, arrogant (sometimes). And now for this situation he can't man up?! Fuckingtastic!

So now, here I am again in this hell cafeteria where I can see him even though I don't want to. There he is, laughing with his freaking buddies like there's no tomorrow and here I am sulking with my two bestfriends who don't agree with my sulking.

"I think you should move on, girl." said Brittany beside me while looking at me and looking at the direction where I'm staring at.

You're kidding me, right?! How am I supposed to move on when we're talking about Blake, the one that I love.

"Uh-huh" Coleen said while nodding at her in agreement.

I just tore my gaze away from him and look at my apple for distraction, like it would. I can feel that my eyes start to water again, but I refused to. No, I'll start to be tough just for this day, if I need to release this hurt inside me, I will do it when no one can see me.

"Will you just shut it?!" I snapped at them and instantly regret it because of the hurt and shocked looked they had in their faces.

"I- I'm so-sorry, I didn't mean to. Sorry." I said quietly at them and looked at my lap, tears start to threaten to escape my eyes but I wiped it before it will spill.

"It's okay hun, we understand you." said Coleen while rushing through my side and hugged my waist beside me and rested her chin at my shoulder.

"Just so you know we're always here for you, right?" asked Britt who also hugged me.

They had pity looks in their faces like they sympathy with me. I know I can count on them anytime, they're always there for me when I need them besides Blake, and now I know I need them right now.

I just looked at them and stretched a small smile at my face and said "I know, and thank you for being there for me when I need you the most. But right now, I just want to pretend like I'm fine, like I can still do this withou-" I was cut with a gasp of Britt beside me while looking at some direction and I followed her gaze and landed on Blake who has lips that is locked with Ashley. They're not literally french kissing though, but they're not moving also and when I looked at them, my eyes landed on a pair of blue eyes that was also staring at me.

"N- No, I- I think I can't d-do that." I whispered to myself and grabbed my bag and stood up and rushed through the door, I can feel that my two bestfriends quickly followed behind me.

I don't know where I'm going, I just let my feet run to where it leads me. I can feel the tears that now freely escaping my eyes and this time I didn't refuse to escape it, I just let them just to release some part of the pain that I was having right now. Until I found myself outside of the school hugging my knees that are now in my chest and just silently crying.

Many thoughts were rushing through my mind now. Why? Why did he just do that to me? I mean if he doesn't love me the way I love him, he doesn't have the rights to just play with my heart just like that. After he just kissed me last time we're still together as bestfriends and now he's sucking some slut's face there! What the hell was that?!

It hurts like fucking hell. I-I can't even breath with my crying. I can feel that I'm crying hysterically right now because of the hurt that caused me to see them like that. My inside were dying because of what I just saw. The guy that I love... Is kissing someone. Kissing Ashley. After he kissed me.. In the shower.. Naked.. Last time we're still okay..

I know you're saying I'm over reacting. But, what the hell?! Try to be in my position that the guy you love and just so happened your bestfriend who've been throughout with you just betrayed you like that?! Huh? Try it! Then you can feel what am I feeling right now that I just want this fucking floor to swallow me up and never come back to this damn hurtful reality I'm having right now.

I can feel my two bestfriends are there comforting me and saying words that would cheer me up and like it would. They said like 'it's going to be fine' 'stop crying hun' by Coleen while Britt just said 'that mother fucking bastard' 'he'll pay for this' 'payback's and karma's a bitch.' And that caught my attention and faced her. I just sniffed and said "What do you mean?"

She just smirked and said "Oh what I mean is, he's going to pay for that one, hunny."

"What're you going to do?"

"Well, if you're just up for this one, love." she said while smiling evilly and her eyes was glistening that you know she's up for something no good.

"Oh no, don't tell me...?" asked Coleen while shaking her head disapprovingly.

So what now, they're having telepathy and understanding each other while me is just staring at them with confused expression?

"What? Just tell me, suckers!" I said irritably at them. Britt just smiled widely while Coleen still had her face that says 'I can't believe we're going to do this.' What does that mean?

"Okay, so here's the plan..."

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Lol, I know that was short and I'm sorry, I'm not happy with this chapter too. But I promise with the next chap, it will be better! :D

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- Nikki xo