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"Baby your like lightning in a bottle, I can't let you go now that I got you."
I recommend listening to the song above^
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As you sat in the store, you kept on thinking.
Why did things turn out this way? Seriously?
Why did the universe fuck you over this much. You have a pretty shitty life at the moment if you couldn't tell.
Things never really go your way and it's not that hard to tell. I mean look at your current activity, gathering enough food for a week that you know your about to binge in one afternoon before your little friend visits you in the night to make you forget allll about the past.
Yeah, it's a pretty normal day for you. You've grown used to it, as pitiful that is to admit. You don't have anything in particular to look forward to, you live a painfully monotone and dull life. You live with the baggage of regret and lost opportunity. With memories that you can only think of to make yourself feel something painfully nostalgic.
It's quit a pity that things turn this way isn't it?
Yeah it is.
You make your way out of the store and head back to your apartment, however you decide to detour and make your way to your favorite café. You have a strong lust for green tea at the moment, not only that but you like just being in the café.
It brings a strong feeling of... safety is it? Something along those lines. It's something you haven't felt in a long time. You long for it but there's nothing to be done about the matter. It's not like you have some waiting for you with open arms, willing to forgive and forget.
No, reality hasn't turned out the best for you. Showing you her cold truths and late night cries instead of hope and joyousness. You do enjoy sitting alone in a café while dwelling on your past mistakes and the life that you long for.
However you can't indulge in your self pitying forever, at least not undisturbed. As your walking down the path of shame you look up and behold, there he is. Akaashi keiji just as you talk about your regret your biggest one comes rolling in.
It's extremely awkward...
Having a staring contest with your ex in the middle of a street.
It doesn't last for too long thank god. Keiji decides to test his luck and greet you it seems.
"Uh. Hi (y/n), it's... nice to see you."
Hesitation, don't you love it? It's lingering in his voice and that's hurts like a bitch but what can you do but accept it.
" oh, hi Keiji, yeah it's nice.. to see you."
Haha no it's not
It's really not keiji, your making my heart tear here yaknow?
God you really do hurt keiji. You should be a type of tourment, well actually you are although I suppose that's only in my eyes. How lucky everyone who hasn't met you is. How lucky they are to not see pain or disappointment in your eyes. That's a blessing.
not knowing Akaashi Keiji is the biggest blessing you think a human can have.
Not knowing what it's like to see him look at another with love and helplessness is a gift, not knowing the distance in his eyes while you cling to him is what helps ease nightmares, not knowing the discomfort in his eyes while your on top of him is blissful.
But yet.
Not knowing the look in his eyes when he sees something he loves is pain, not knowing the feeling of him surrounding you is a hell, not knowing the soft blush on his body from exhaustion that you caused is being separated from a part of your soul.
Keiji, Your a fucking curse.
"Um (y/n). I- I just wanted to say that, I'm sorry about how we left things when you moved. I shouldn't have reacted the way I did and I hope you accept my apology."
But it's not your fault..
It's mine really.
I can't blame you for jumping away from me at the nearest opportunity Keiji, I'm not someone you want to be around, I'm not sweet or nice. I'm impulsive, I'm reckless, I decide with my heart not my head, I'm easily angered and I'm not good for you.
The love we had was reckless and destroyed everything in its way, it's was a dangerous love keiji.
It was like a tornado, which is why it lasted for what seems like a long time.
But it ended in a whimper and a cry.
You don't want that, do you? Do you really want to surround yourself with someone as rough as me? Someone that's not going to go easy on your heart? someone that's going to rip it out and keep it?
Keiji I'm doing this for your own good, I promise I'm not the girl you want nor need.
You'll get over it and when you do, you'll be able to see with tear ridden eye's.
" it wasn't your fault a Keiji, so don't apologize."
I tried to keep my tone strong and demanding so he understands that I'm making my point.
He looks at me and his eyes soften. He gives me the look of realizing that I front of you is a gem, don't look at me like I'm a prized possession keiji. I'm like lightning in a bottle, let me out and you'll get burnt.
Don't keep me on the shelf to look at occasionally, If you want to keep me then you better make me your priority.
"(Y/n) I- I wanna fix things. Will you please let me in?"
You knew damn well he was talking about your emotions.
