★Katsuki Bakugou x Reader One Shots★

❦Katsuki X Depressed, Self Harm Reader

"Damn." (Y/N) muttered as she sat up in her bed. She was hoping she wouldn't wake up. It got so tiring. Waking up everyday and hating it. (Y/N) reluctantly stood to her feet, getting changed into her school clothes. Her (E/C) eyes traveled to the mirror resting against her wall, too lazy to hang it up. There were scars that littered her waist, some were old, but some still had dried blood overtop them.

A sigh escaped her chapped lips as she began to get changed. It always went like this. Wake up, go to school, come back to her dorm, eat just enough to satisfy her, cut, get a shower, cut again, sleep, repeat. The days only became more dreadful as they went by.

"What the hell took you so long?" Bakugo asked when (Y/N) opened her door. For some unknown reason, Bakugo and (Y/N) became good friends. He didn't know why, but Bakugo fell for (Y/N). He'd always wanted to tell her, but every time he worked up the courage to, she would give him that look. That look that was just... empty.

(Y/N) wanted to say she loved Katsuki, but it was so hard for her to say the word love when she didn't love herself. The door to class 1-A opened, (Y/N) and Bakugo walking through together. Bakugo parred from (Y/N) to go to his seat while she went to hers. The only other person that really talked to (Y/N) was Todoroki. She could never tell why though.

Todoroki knew. He talked to her because she kinda reminds him of himself. They were a lot alike, believe it or not.

Aizawa walked into the classroom, shutting the open mouths immediately. "We're talking notes first today—."
(Y/N) was zoned out for the rest of the class. She was happy it was an easy day for once.

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"Class dismissed." Aizawa said as he lashed down in his sleeping bag for a nap. The class slowly filed out of the room, either going back to the dorms or heading out into the city to do whatever they do. (Y/N) just went right back to her dorm, just like every other day. Just when she walked into the lounge room, the Bakusquad was sitting on the couch, video game controllers in their hands.

"Oi, dumbass." Bakugo said from his spot next to Kirishima. "You wanna stay down here for once with us?"

Mina smiled leaning over the back of the sofa. "Yeah! Come on, (Y/N)! It'll be fun!"

"No, that's okay." (Y/N) said softly. "I'm just gonna go back up to my dorm room. See you guys later."

(Y/N) wish she could stay down there with them, but she'd always thought of herself as a burden. Her family always said rude things to her. Sometimes, they would joke around. What they didn't know is that they were joking about (Y/N)'s insecurities.

The first time (Y/N) ever self harmed, was whenever she was 14. She's 16 now. Self harming for two years. Not good. (Y/N) slid down her closed door, burying her face into her knees, letting the few tears she had left fall.

Not much escaped. All of her tears had been taken away from her every night for the past two years. Nowadays, she would just stare blankly at a wall or at her ceiling to fall asleep. (Y/N) managed to pull herself together just the tiniest bit, getting to her feet and dropping her book bag beside her bed.

Her eyes fell upon the small mini fridge in her room. There was no point in eating right now. The girl slowly trudged into her bathroom, opening her cabinet to see an orange pill bottle. She picked it up into her hand, looking at it with thoughts running through her head.

There were only two choices here. Either one, take the pills and end this suffering. Or two, don't take the pills and continue on, only becoming more numb as the days go by.

She put the container of pills onto the counter. Opening her drawer and pulling out a blade that was littered with dried blood on the sharp piece of it. No tears left her eyes when she felt the blood drip down her arm. You could hear the occasional faint yells from the lounge.

(Y/N) dropped the blade onto her counter, opening the pill bottle quickly. It hurt so much to hear laughter that hand theft her mouth for over three years. She was in pain. The water dropped down the drain as (Y/N) turned on her sink and cupped her hand underneath it to get her water.

Two pills fell into her mouth when you could hear knocks on her door that turned into bangs. "Oi! Dumbass! I'm coming in!" Katsuki opens the door, looking around, expecting to see (Y/N) on her bed like she normally was.

The sound of things falling onto the floor from the bathroom made confusion spread to Katsuki's face. His eyes widened when a loud thud was heard, surelet alerting the others. "What the hell—!! (Y/N)!! (Y/N)!" Bakugo rushes into the bathroom, stepping on the pills that had been scattered.

"Hey,Kacchan? (Y/N)? What was—oh my gosh!!" Midoriya was the first to walk into the room while the rest of the class stood outside. (Y/N) was passed out in Katsuki's arms on the floor, fresh blood dripping onto the floor where a small puddle was already forming. "Get Aizawa and call an ambulance!!" Bakugo yelled. The class heard everything and Mina quickly got the ambulance on the phone while Iida ran to Aizawa as fast as he could.

Katsuki continued to shake (Y/N), trying everything to see her eyes open again. "(Y/N)!! (Y/N) open your damn eyes!!"

The same (E/C) orbs Katsuki fell in love with opened only slightly. "K-Katsuki... I made.. a really... really big mistake..."

"Yeah, no shit!! Just shut up! You can't die on us! I... I have so much to tell you...." Bakugo said while ambulances approached Heights Alliance. Aizawa bursted through the door. "Bakugo! Back up, back up!! Everybody go to your dorms!! Go!!" The class backed away hesitantly. Shoji had to pull Bakugo away from (Y/N) as Aizawa picked her up to take her to the ambulance faster.

Bakugo ran to (Y/N)'s dorm window, watching the ambulance disappear quickly with tears building in his eyes.

"W-What are we supposed to do..?" Mina asked as a few classmates gathered in (Y/N)'s room. Kids bent down to examine the pills that were on (Y/N)'s bathroom floor. "These are.... she really tried to.."

Bakugo couldn't listen to this anymore and jumped from the window, using his quirk to go to the hospital (Y/N) went to as fast as he could. Tears ran down his cheeks when he thought about what (Y/N) must've been going through to go so far. It was terrifying.

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Bright lights blinded (Y/N) temporarily when her eyes finally opened. "Wha..where am I?"

"What the— (Y/N)!!" Bakugo yelled while standing to his feet faster than Iida could ever run. Bakugo threw his arms around (Y/N) pulling her head into his chest. "You fucking idiot!! Do you realize what you just did?! I swear— I could have lost you! You mean so fucking much to me and you were feeling this way?! I don't care how tough it gets, you never, EVER even THINK about doing that again!! Do you hear me?!"

"K-Katsuki.." It was as if (Y/N) just drank the whole ocean. Tears fell from her cheeks as she began to cry uncontrollably into Bakugo's chest. It was the first time she actually felt needed in years. "K-Katsuki... i-I'm so sor-sorry.." Bakugo tightened his hold on (Y/N) as his own tears escaped from his eyes.

"Listen.. d-dumbass. I.. I love you." Bakugo muttered into (Y/N)'s hair, only causing her to cry more. That was all she needed. That one bright light in the world.

"I-I love you too, Katsuki."

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