A Poem I Can Never Read

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"In this lesson on Real Numbers, Exponents and Surds we focus on the number system and consider the relationship of the number system to square roots"

Fuck. My mind was too preoccupied by my bed, wala akong gustong gawin kundi umuwi at matulog. Don't get me wrong hindi naman ako tamad mag-aral sobrang napuyat lang talaga ako kagabi kakaisip sa future ko. Feeling ko may anxiety na ako lol I keep on overthinking.

Besides nakakatamad naman kasi talaga magturo teacher namin parang hinihele ako ng boses ni ma'am.

I know anyone can relate how I hate morning classes especially my house is too far from the school so I really need to wake up at 5am dahil I need to travel but still I'm always late para sa 7am class ko.

"Okay class since we are all aware na malapit na ang graduation niyo and as an incoming college student all of you should be responsible enough, I want you to think about what course will you take up on college dahil need 'yan ilagay sa inyong yearbook. Since STEM strand ang pinili niyo I hope you have something in mind,inform your class president at siya nalang ang magpapasa sa akin. Class dismiss"

"Braychella! ako talagang naiistress na hindi ko pa rin alam kung Engineer ba o pagdodoctor ang ilalagay ko!" my friend ash said.

"WALA KANG MALOLOKO DITO! Alam naman nating lahat na ang pipiliin mong course ay kung saan maraming gwapo!" Sabi ko nalang dahil totoo naman ang kaibigan kong ito ay sadyang may harot na taglay, syempre lahat kami.

"Tara kain na tayo sa satellite, housewife nalang ilalagay ko sa akin nakakatamad" Arivielle said.

Wala namang imik si Angelice ang isa pa naming kaibigan kaya't tinignan ko siya aba ang babaitang ito nakatitig nanaman sa ex niya na kasama ang ex-bestfriend niya.

"Mga bakla kayo tara na nga huwag na isipin yan may quiz pa sa basic calculus mamaya, jusko ito na ang katapusan ko" Sabi ko sa kanila dahil sa totoo lang kaya ko pinili itong strand na ito dahil ewan ko ba parang gusto ko maging engineer pero pag hindi pinalad mag-aasawa nalang ng engineer! charot 1/4

I really don't know what the future holds and the only thing to do is to risk so you will not regret anything in the end. When I was in my junior high school year least favorite ko talaga ang math subjects lol sino ba namang hindi diba halos isumpa ko pa yan lalo na nung grade 9 ako imbis na kasali ako sa honor roll dahil 92 naman ang average ko pero dahil sa math subject at sa grade kong 83 ay hindi ako nakasali but still I received awards and considered as an academic achiever. Yun lang naman ang goal ko habang nag-aaral ako, to have good grades but ayaw ata sa akin ni math.

Maybe because of that I became determined na piliin ang STEM strand sa Senior High School at mag Engineering sa college. I want to prove that I can and kesa naman habang buhay ako maging mahina bakit hindi ko nalang palakasin ang sarili ko. I want to make my weakest point as one of my skills. Here I am currently enrolled in the STEM strand, Grade 12 na and graduating student na sa Letran.

My day ended. Same routine lang naman ako palagi but I think the worst part is every night I start overthinking. But the most scary part for me is kung papasa ba ako sa entrance exam sa dream school ko which is UST. So I decided to prepare for it and that is when my life starts to change. Unexpected things really do happen.