Silent Cries for Help- TodoDeku- Angst

Chicken Nuggets

Midoriya

"Midoriya, Please!" The voice that called for me over through the voice in my head. I looked up from the blade. Before I could do anything, the knife was ripped from my hand and thrown into a bush. I looked up and my eyes met with the taller male in front of me.

"Please... l-l-let me die." I pleaded trying to past him to get to the knife. He picked me up while I was kicking and screaming. "Let me go, I want to die!" I yelled with tears spilling down my face. Before I knew it, we were in the kitchen. He placed me down on the counter. I covered my face and cried into my hands.

"Midoriya, why? What happened? You were doing so good." He stood in front of me. I pulled my feet onto the counter and brought my knees to my chest. I didn't look or speak to him. I wasn't careful again and I was caught, stopped. He pulled one of my arms away and started to wrap them. 

"I'm sorry." He spoke with a soft voice and began to wrap my other wrist. I lift my head slightly and through my tears, I looked at him.

"Why?"

"I shouldn't have left you, I should have brought you with me. If I was a few seconds late, you wouldn't be here and it would be because my reckless decision." A tear ran down his cheek as he looked at me. I let my legs hang off the counter, I moved to the edge and wiped the tear from his face.

"It's not your fault that I want to die." I whispered to him. His expression change quickly after I spoke.

"I don't want you to feel that way. I want to be the reason you want to live because I love you. You don't believe me. After everything I've done, you still can't see it." He picked up the flowers that sat on the other counter and through them onto me lap, "If I was too late, if you made that final cut, you would never have known about these." He stopped yelling and turned around and locked the cabinet. "I just want you to live, Midoriya." He spoke in a soft tone and walked up to his room and slammed the door.

I looked down at the flower on my lap. Did he get these for me? I picked them up and there was a note connected to it. I wiped the tears from my eyes so I could read what was written on it.

          'Izuku Midoriya, will you be my boyfriend? ~Todo'

I dropped the flowers to the floor. Does he actually care about me? I slipped off the counter and slowly shuffled up the steps. I stood in front of the door. What was he doing in there? Should I just walk in or knock? I came to the conclusion of doing neither. Instead, I sat down on the floor and leaned against his door.

Selfish... Weak... If you jumped, he wouldn't be hurting... burden... If you would have cut the vein from the start, you would be dead... unloved... unwanted...

I am loved though, Todoroki loves me. He was going to ask me out.

He's not going to ask you now...

The voice in my head was right. Why would he want me? I keep pushing him away when he tries to help. I pull my knees to my chest and cried softly into my knees.

Todoroki

I was sitting on my bed facing the window. The curtains were pulled together, so it was dark in my room. He says he loves me but then tries to end his life. I love him but it feels like every time I leave him alone for a second, he gives up. I started to feel this pit in my chest as I thought about what just happened. I pulled him away from the woods as he pleaded for death. Shit. I yelled at him. I through the flowers at him. I left him alone when he needed me. 

I stood up from my bed and wiped my tears. I go to open the door but it was heavier than normal as I pulled it toward me. The weight of the door lightened as I opened it slowly. I looked down at the poor little boy. He was looking up at me with puffy eyes. I take a seat on the floor and leaned against the door frame. I looked down at my hands then back to his foggy eyes.

"I'm sorry, I shouldn't have yelled." I felt a slight pressure on my thigh. I looked down to see his hand there.

"No, I'm so sorry. Every time you said you loved me, my mind would ruin the moment. The voice would say negative thoughts about why you would say that." He paused and looked down. "I'm sorry I can't be a normal happy person, that was easy to love." I placed my hands on his cheeks and genteelly force him to look at me.

"I don't care, as long as you are you. No matter how hard it is, I will not stop fighting for you to see that my love is real."

"Yes."

"Yes?" I repeated unsure of what he was saying yes to.

"That is if you still want me." His gaze fell to the floor. I realize, I gave him the flowers with the letter. I pulled him into a tight embrace on the floor.

"Of course, I would still want you to be my boyfriend." I whispered into his ear. We pulled away and I stood up. I held out my hand to help him up. He took it and I pulled him to his feet. I gave him a small grin.

"How about those chicken nuggets?" He smiled back and grabbed my hand and pulled me downstairs. He let go of me when we made it to the counter with the food. He pulled out two packages of nuggets and hands me one. He grabs my hand again and yanked my to the front yard. He lets go to open the front door. He walks outside and takes a seat on the dry grass. I walk out to him and take a seat beside him.

"Thank you." I tilted my head wondering why. "For the nuggets." I nodded and we finished eating. I had finished first and laid down. I looked up to the sky. The small boy slowly moved to lay down next to me on the grass. I turned my head and our eyes met. There was a warm sensation in my hand. I take a quick glance down at my hand to see his hand in mine. I interlocked our fingers as I looked back into his eyes. The sparkle was pure and the darkness was fading. I wish we could stay like this forever.