Silent Cries for Help- TodoDeku- Angst

Deep Thought

Midoriya

In the middle of my sentence, a wave washed over me. It was sadness, that took over me. I gripped onto him and looked into his eyes with my watery ones. I don't know what was happening, everything was going great. I have been having an amazing time with him but I felt so sad at this point in time. He stared down at me, worried.

"I want to see my m-mom again." I broke down and cried into his chest. He wrapped his arms around me. I tighten my grip on his sides as I cried. It wasn't a 'I don't want to be here anymore' cry more like a 'finally accepting that she is gone' cry. Todoroki didn't say anything he just let me cry. After about 15 minutes, I pulled away and wiped my face.

"I'm sorry, Izuku. I can't bring her back." I kissed him by surprise.

"I know, but it felt good to finally get that off my chest." He picked me up and held me up by placing his hands on my thighs. I wrapped my legs around him again and let him carry me out of the bathroom. I didn't care if he was shirtless and wet. He laid me on my bed and laid next to me. He was facing me when he placed a hand on my hip.

"Are you okay, Izu?"

I nodded and moved closer to him. I pressed my head against his chest. I ran my hand up his torso. This is soothing, I feel safe around him. Beside that, his abs are rock hard and I love the feel of them.

"What are you doing?"

I looked up at him and removed my hand. He grabbed my hand and held it against his chest.

"Ummm...I..uh..was feeling." I shuddered, blushing like crazy.

"It's okay, Izuku. It just caught me off guard." He kissed my forehead and I glared at him. "Oh." He realized what he did and fixed it. He kissed me on the lips instead of the forehead. "Is that better, my love?"

I looked up at him and nodded. I sat up and he did too. I look into his eyes then down at my hands. I look back at him then down at the sleeves covering my wrists.

"I glad." I whisper.

"Of what?" He rested his head on my shoulder.

"That you were there in the bathroom, a few weeks ago." I turned my head to look at him and he looked at me, not staying a word. "I thought nothing was going to get better. I thought it was for the best. The only person, I thought I had was my mom. When she left it hurt and it tore me apart." I paused for a second then continued. "I didn't think about my friends and I was clueless about you. I would never had guessed that you would save me. On the floor in the bathroom, bleeding out, you would have been the last face I would've seen."

"Izuku-" I cut him off.

"Some reason you looked into the 'scratches', you seen passed the fake smile that I wore. You found me in my bathroom on the edge of death. You saved me. You put up with me for the past couple weeks. My life has been hell and I wanted to end it. I was close so many fricken times but was stopped. I don't regret those attempts."

"Midoriya-" I cut him off again.

"I don't regret any of it. But... I wish to never do them again. If I regretted them, it's like saying I regret being with you. If you didn't notice the cuts, if you didn't find me in my bathroom, I wouldn't be here. We wouldn't be together. So, I'm glad you noticed, I'm glad you found me, I'm glad we're together." I looked at him and I surprised with myself. I wasn't the one in tears, he was.

I pulled him into a hug and rested my head on his shoulder as he did to mine. I wish somethings went different but if it was up to me, I wouldn't change a thing. If I didn't go through the stuff I did, would I still be me? Would I still be the person Shoto loves? I wouldn't change a thing as long as I end up with him.

When he finally calmed down, he lifted his head to face me. I stared into his eyes, trying to figure out what he wanted to say. His bottom lip shook as a tear rolled down his face. I raise my left hand and wiped it away.

"Izuku, I'm glad your mine." He spoke softly, not breaking the gaze. I know I created this sad mood, but I don't like it. 

"You don't own me. I'm your boyfriend." I teased with a smile, trying to brighten the mood.

"I don't care. Someday, you will be mine and only mine." He said with a small smirk. He wrapped his arms around my torso and pulled us back, to lay down. I turned and faced him. I cupped his face in my hands.

"Is that a threat?" I teased staring into his dreamy eyes.

"No, my love, It's a promise." He whispered then kissed me. His lips were so soft pressed against mine, then we pulled away and stared into each others eyes, again.

"What if I refuse?" I tease some more.

"I highly doubt you will." He pressed our lips together and run his hand through my hair. Eventually, we pulled away again. I kept my eyes close, repeating the kiss in my mind.

"I guess we will find out, someday." I opened my eyes. "Want some food?"

We sat up and looked at each other. He grabbed my hand and we walked out of the room. He lead me downstairs to the kitchen. I picked me up and set me on the counter. He place each hand on the counter next to my thighs and gazed into my eyes.

"I'll cook, you just sit here. Tell me what you want and I'll make it, my love." He pecked me on the lips and waited for my responds.