Silent Cries for Help- TodoDeku- Angst

Day 4 Pt2

Midoriya

"Is everything okay?" Aizawa asked low to a whisper as we passed his desk.

"Yeah, he's fine." Todoroki answered lowly. I made my way to my seat and sat down. Aizawa carried on with the lesson and I barely payed attention, I just stared out the window as my thoughts battled it out in my head.

If he actually loved you, he would know you were lying.

'He does love me and it was only half the truth, so not a lie.'

Who are you kidding? Why would someone like him, so hot, so smart, so caring, love anyone like you?

'I don't know but he does love me.'

Stop, you're just making yourself suffer. You have suffered enough, just do it.

'Do what?'

I don't know. Jump, cut, swollen pills, get drunk, get high. Just make the suffer stop.

'Right now? I'm in class.'

I take that back, during lunch go to the top of the building and jump. Just do it. It will end the suffering for you and for everyone else.

'Why?'

Because you just drag everyone down. Didn't you see how only one person texted you when you were gone.

'Yeah.'

My point exactly. At lunch, tell everyone you have to go to the bathroom and head to the roof. Even better do it right now.

I nodded to myself and raised my hand. 

"What is it Midoriya?" Aizawa called in his natural tired tone.

"May I be excused to the restroom?"

"The bell will ring in like five minutes, go then." He then turned around and resumed teaching. I put my hand down and turned to look out the window until the bell finally rang. I got out of my seat and rushed out of the room. I dashed down the hall with my bag in my hand. I went into the bathroom and looked in the mirror.

Stop being a pussy. Make everyone happy and jump.

I nodded with my eyes slowly filling with tears. I walked out of the bathroom and down the hall. I took the flight of steps to the roof. The door was unlocked in my luck. I opened it and walked onto the wall-less floor. The wind was blowing in my green messy hair. The air was fresh and calming. I shuffled over to the bench and sat down. I set my bag on the floor next to me and bent over to untie my shoes. I was reaching for my shoes when the door opened.

"What the hell are you doing?" The figure yelled from the door. The tears rushed to the surface of my eyes again but didn't not come out. I sat up and clinched my pants in my fists. The male shuffled over to me and knelled in front of me and held onto my hands.

"Izuku, what are you doing up here?" My boyfriend's voice stung when it was filled with concern.

"Nothing, the view is amazing isn't it?" I said trying to convince him.

"Yeah, but why are you up here?" He got up from the ground and sat beside me. He wrapped his arm around me and pulled me closer to him.

"The fresh air is calming." I looked down as I lend up against him.

"Okay. Hey, I have to go home after school today. My old man wants me home this weekend to train."

"Can I come with you?"

"I wish you could but he wouldn't take it well, finding out that I'm gay and all. But how about Tomorrow, we can met up for lunch?"

"Okay, and you have to text me at least before bed."

"I can do that. How about the cafe on the counter on main street?"

"Okay, noon."

"Sounds great." He said and snuggled his head into my neck. We eventually decided to leave the roof and back to class because lunch was over. The last classes went by fast, too fast. As soon as the final bell rang, I rushed to Todoroki's side. We slowly walked out of the school together. We held hands on the way to the front gate. When we reached the gates, he let go and cupped my face in both of his hands.

"I love you with all my heart, Izu." 

Lies.

"I love you, too, Sho." We soon kissed and melted into each other. The single kiss quickly turned into a make-out session. I ran my hands through his hair and his hands wrapped around my waist.

"Get a fucking room!" Kacchan yelled leaving campus. Todoroki and I parted from the kiss.

"I'll see you soon, my love." Todoroki said in a loving tone before leaving campus in a different direction than Kacchan. I nodded and turned around. I walked back to the dorms. When I walked in, there really wasn't anyone there. Everyone went home for the weekend, the only person that was left here besides me was, Tokoyami. 

"Are you not going home?" I asked shuffling to the couch and seated next to him.

"No. I find it useless to go back and forth between school and home to only be alone both places."

"Alone?"

"My parents both work during the weekend, so I go and visit only on holidays."

"Oh."

"Why aren't you going home?"

"I don't really have a home to go to." I said softly.

"Sorry."

"It's okay. Hey, can you cook because I'm not supposed to under curtain reasons."

"Not really, I typically order pizza. Want to do that?"

"Sure, I'll order. What do you want?" I asked pulling out my phone.

"Doesn't matter, I will eat whatever you order." 

I got up from the couch and dialed the pizza place. We ended eating together then leave for our dorms. I sat on my bed strolling through social media. Tsuyu and Uraraka seem to be hanging out because Uraraka keeps posting on her story of them at a park. I'm glad they're having fun. The clock was hitting 11:00pm and Todoroki hadn't texted or called yet. So, I decide to text him first.

'Hey, Sho. How was training go?' I sent the message and waited. An hour passed and he didn't even open it.

'I miss you Sho ❤' Sent. Another hour passed and he hadn't read it.

'You must have been too tired and it slipped your mind. Well, see you in a few hours. I love you Sho' Sent. I turned off my phone and put it on the charger. I laid down to go to sleep.

Look at the signs. He's done with you, he won't text you. You aren't worth his time.