My life's about to end

Depression started

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HOPES P.O.V

I have been through so much. I haven't seen my cousin in for ever and I'm so depressed. kids are making fun of me at school because I'm bold. my best friend Lilly may left me because she thought I was ugly I've started to cut and I sit at night in the corner of my room and cry I mean cry I cry till I can't breath I cry till I cough up blood I just cry. Some nights I cry so much that I have to go to hospital because I'm so sick I just can't live like this any more. I WISH I COULD DIE ALREADY.

It all started on my 10th birthday I was looking forward to it. I was having my last chemo therapy and I wanted it over and done with. But I wasn't prepared for what happened next I didn't think I would lose all my friends. I didn't think my family would be to scared to visit me. And I wasn't prepared for depression. it hit me like a hurricane I didn't expect it but when it hit me it wouldn't disappear no matter how much it hurt no matter how much my mum wanted me to be happy I just wasn't I tried I did try but school made it worst. and every time I heard my mum in her room at night crying I started to cut it hurt I couldn't bare the blood so I turned away. I would full all of the the tubes that are attached into my wrist out. so I could die but it never worked never. I WISH IT WOULD I JUST WANT TO DIE. IS THAT TO MUCH TO ASK.

Every time I jabbed a needle in my arm I thought I could of not jabbed that in and died.

I thought Why is God doing this to me.

I thought what is wrong with me why am I soo ugly why can't I just die why can't you see I want to die.

I prayed every night I prayed I would wake up and this would be a dream I prayed that I would wake up and Lilly may would be my friend.
I just couldn't live.

It was the middle of the night and I heard dad shout call the ambulance I thought why nothing's wrong with me. then I thought mum
I ran to the phone as quick as I could I rang the ambulance.

The lights flashed through the window. It brang back memories of when I first got cancer. I started to cry I was scared I knew it was my fault. The doctor came and sat next to me on my bed and asked me why my mum was in this state. I told her about my cancer and how I'm depressed and my bullying. Another doctor came in and whispers to the doctor on the bed she's gonna be alright. They asked if I heard that I said yes.

The doctor brought me some depression tablets and told me to calm down.

She asked what school I go to and said my daughter goes there she asked What year I was in I said 8. She told me to ring this number.