hate you | h.rj

ch twelve

Eunji

before i could even speak up, i ran away, leaving him with no words.
i hate doing this but i have no choice, i am still not ready to talk to him.

before i could even run further, a body stopped me. from its form, i could say it's a boy. i looked up to see who it was and it was jaemin. i was not surprised anymore.

he was always there for me ever since that happen. he was always there to comfort me and when i need someone and he did it again.

"it's ok, stop crying now." he pulled me in a hug and caressed my hair trying to stop me from crying.

"I don't know what to do now. i can't talk to him." i hugged him back and he was just silent.

"maybe it's not yet the time for you to talk to him. let it pass for now and wait for the right time." he said trying to comfort me. i landed my head to his shoulder and he wrapped his arm to me.

"d-do you think it's a good idea to hate him? i mean, if i will hate him, it would be much easier to forget my feelings for hin and nmto not get hurt anymore." i suggested. that's the only thing i think i should do right now. i just wanna get rid all of these.

"if that's what you think will work, do it. it's up to you and i understand."

"thank you so much, jaemin. i mean it alot." i said smiling. he gave me his handkerchief to wipe my tears.

"it's ok, i understand you. always remember that i'm always here for you." he smiled back. we pulled back now as we hear the school bell rang. i don't think i can attend our class right now but i don't want this to affect my life.

i walked to my class now. as i enter, i can feel his eyes all over me. his guilty and worried stares at me that i shrugged off and continued my way to my desk. I won't let him affect me.

"omg eunji, are you okay now?" chani looks so worried so i nodded assuring her.

"im fine, chani. don't worry about me." she hugged me and rubbed my back. when she went back to her seat, i saw renjun looking at me infront. i looked away ignoring him. he backed away sadly and heard him sigh. this hurts.

time passed by quickly and it was already dismissal. i was about to go when i remembered that i have some task to do with renjun today.

our teacher assigned renjun to do something and i need to help him since im the secretary. great.

"you look tired." he said out of nowhere but i pretended like i didn't hear him. i continued what i was doing.

"look, i get that you don't wanna talk to me yet but at least forgive me." he sighed and i just shook my head. this is harder than i thought but i need to hate him from now on.

"there's nothing to talk about, renjun. forget it, i hate you and dont talk to me except if it's school stuff. i dont like you jut to be clear. here's all the copy i finished, i need to go now."

i still like you, dumbass.

i packed my things. just by looking at him, he looks so hurt and sad. i regret doing this but i need to.

I need to hate him from now on if i want everything to be alright.