hate you | h.rj

ch thirteen

Renjun

i went home with a sad look and my mom looked at me worried.

"something wrong with school?" she asked while doing her work on the kitchen.

"no, im fine. just stressed out from school works." i lied. she held me a glass of water and smiled.

"take a rest first, honey. i'll call you when dinner is ready." i went to my room and flopped on my bed.

looking at the ceiling makes me remember of what have happened earlier.

She hates me.

but that is not just the case.

She never liked me.

it hurts to know that but it made me wonder, why did she cry then? why did she say that i dont know what she felt? why did it affect her in some way?

but i dont care now. i should let her be. she has the right to hate me and i gave her the reason to. this is so fucked up. I am fucked up. 

how am i gonna do my work as a class president when she is my secretary? will that be awkward?

i should not let this affect me. maybe i'll act like i don't care again so that things will go on point again, i think that would work.

i should stop liking her now and i don't have a chance anymore.

i should forget everything that have happen. we should remain as classmates and nothing more.

and i should also try my best to unlike her.

i woke up with the sound of my alarm. damn, i overslept. i only have 40 minutes to get ready now so i don't have time to waste. i did all my morning routine and went to school.

as i walk to the school, i saw eunji. she looked normal than the other days. she doesn't look tired and pale too. i guess she's fine now and i should not bother her.

i went to my locker and i saw jaemin standing beside it.

"morning." he said without emotion.

"sup." i replied back and opened my locker to get my books.

"let's talk." he walked away and i followed him confused.

we ended up in the classroom near the library where we usually are.he leaned his back on the table and i sat on one of the chairs, makes it look like im in detention.

"what do you want?" i asked and looked at him.

"don't act like you don't know what happen." he smirked and sighed.

"why do you want to talk about it, huh? what does it have to do to you?" i don't know why he's so into this. this has nothing to do to him unless ....

"don't you get it? you hurt her, you hurt eunji and you didn't even think about that stupid prank twice. that was so dumb for you to do. and what does it have to do to me? ok then, i like eunji. yes, i like her and i fucking hate that you do that to her. i can't believe you've done that, renjun like for what?? to hurt her?! are you fucking insane??! "

i was not surprised. i knew it. i knew he likes her. the way he acts after that, i knew he likes her. and damn, I didn't think this was worst than i thought.

i combed my hair with my hands in frustration and he took deep breath trying to stop himself from hurting me. he looks mad and disappointed and i can't blame him.

he went to me and grabbed my collar.

"you may be my bestfriend,

he stopped and i looked back at him deeply into his eyes.

"but that doesn't mean you can't be my rival for the girl we both like"

then he left.

why did i even do this?

i lost the girl that i like and now i think my bestfriend too.

i entered the classroom but i bumped into someone, it was eunji.

she looked at me coldly and said 'sorry'. i went to my seat and fixed my things.

i hate what is happening now.

i ruined everything. i don't know any way on how to fix this. i think i should focus first on my studies before thinkinng what to do. i should not let this be a distraction.

What ever happens, happens.

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