thoughtless beauty

the true you

im scared.
who says that im the true me.
dont we all just conform to how we want to be perceived?
your parents have a completely different opinion on who you are compared to who your friends think you are and then how you behave at work is a completely different character in a completely different story.

we all act different depending on who we are with.

however, is it wrong to then point at others two faced personality?
one could argue being two faced and changing behaviour to fit a scenario as different but at its core. they both mean to differentiate ones persona for the benefit.

benefit. who is actually benefitting from it?
you? others?
if you say it were for the sake of others i would say lies.

you are only behaving a certain way to protect yourself.
and when you realise that...isnt it tiring? having to change appearances on who you meet and where you are.
let the people know the real you.

let us know who would stay for the true you. let the true you shine.
and you may wonder who the true you is...
well...
doesnt that depend on you?
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hello hello :))))
yes i am alive
and omgggg the last time i updated was november 2019
gosh i dont know why i havent just completed it yet but then i get moments like this where i just write when an idea comes to mind.
i hope to be more active with this book. if not then i might just finish it with a random chapter lol