Buried Memories

Chapter 02

It's already 2 in the morning and I can't even feel that I'm sleepy his words are so remarkable it's like a tattoo that will leave a mark. How could he do this to me? I'm very affected by his words or I'm just overreacting? UGHHHHH!!!! If I looked like a Panda tomorrow it's his fault. 

I tried closing my eyes for the 99th time now, but I failed. So I just waited until the sun came out, as I adore the view from my veranda it's gorgeous. I just wished this won't be the last time I'll witness the sunrise since I have a month to stay here. I decided to get myself milk and lazily walk but I was so shocked when I saw Kuya Peter in the countertop drinking energy drink.

"wtf Louisa?! Mukha kang panda" he said and then laughed "bakit ba kasi ang aga mong nagising ha?" pahabol niya minsan nakakaasar na talaga si kuya. 

"Kuya can you shut up? You know I'm experiencing insomnia since we got here" I lied while opening the refrigerator to get my milk. I saw my brother smiling as I drink my milk, seriously?! "What?!" masungit kong tanong and then I rolled my eyes.

"Sama ka? Jogging tas after breakfast basketball" sabi niya habang pinipigilan ang pag ngiti pero umiling na lamang ako at tumalikod sa kanya. 

"nope kuya pass muna, wala pang tulog" sabi ko sabay takbo sa kwarto baka asarin nanaman ako eh.

It's already 5 in the afternoon when I woke up and this is my favorite part of the day. So I went out of the house and climb into the roof, it feels relaxing oh my gosh I think I got addicted to the sunset here. Habang nag mumuni-muni ay may naalala ako ganon ba talaga tingin ng mga tao sakin dito? Do I look unapproachable? But maybe it's just his opinion, right? Should I ask my family about this? 

That day I was very unproductive because of thinking about what he said to me, but then I realize maybe he was right my attitude towards everyone here was not good. I'm really closing my chances to be close with them, while I'm feeling lonely they're trying to understand me but unfortunately, I'm shutting the doors for them.

 I even cried that night because I realize I was so selfish for not understanding our situation maybe that's the other reason why my mom's family is so distant to me. I can't believe that he was the one who made me realize my mistakes, but I still hate him. That's the last thing I remember before falling asleep. 

I woked up when I heard loud knocks on my door "Louisa apo, gising na mag bre-breakfast na" she said so I opened the door so that she could come in. "Good morning apo" she said and kiss my cheeks.

But instead of greeting her I just replied "Lola I'm sorry" and then cried again I felt betrayed by my own tears I just can't stop them but she was so shocked and didn't know what to do so she just hugged me so tight. 

"Why darling? are you okay?" she asked and that makes me cry even more.

"Lola I'm sorry po for not understanding our situation, sorry for being not good enough as your grandchild" I sobbed and looked at her.

"Darling, don't be sorry we're not mad at you. no one is" she said while wiping her tears. "Naiintindihan ka namin apo" she said "Mahirap para saamin na nakikita kang nagkakaganyan na dinidistansiya mo ang iyong sarili sa amin, pero alam mo ang mas mahirap apo? Ang hindi kayo makasama bago kami umalis ng bansa, alam mo namang may katandaan na kami kaya mahihirapan kaming mag biyahe papunta sa inyo" dagdag niya pa. 

"No Lola, now that I finally understand the situation I'm okay with this set-up, I hope we could use the remaining months to hang-out though," I said and when I saw her angelic smile I was relieved she was a soft person, I swear.

"Of course darling we'll do that. but for now, let's have some breakfast shall we?" she replied and then I just nod to say yes "Okay fix yourself darling we'll be waiting for you downstairs" she said and the last thing I knew is that I was turning the AC off before leaving my room.