D e v i n
He didn't want to question what the hell Joshua was doing here with her but he trusted her. It was hard to stay positive, but he tried. He was willing to try for her, ditching away all the bad thoughts he had about her. He knew he could trust her, she still loved him after being together for a period of time. He thought... he did too, as he found it really hard to erase her smile, her sweet voice, the wah her soft hands holding him from his mind.
Or maybe he just simply cannot get over the fact that she was the one that ditched him. She slammed the door at him before, punched his nose to bleed, pushing him away.
That what he deserved, he guess. After tearing her down with his dicouraging words and the way he poisoned her mind with his thoughtful speeches. He knew he was up for no good for her, he knew better about it.
He stayed there, standing in front of her door as memory after memory came bursting in his head. He remembered when he came over for the first time after school, she was being shy around him and embarrassed with how 'messy' her room was when there were only magazines and random shirts on the floor everywhere. His room was worse.
Taking a deep breathe, he turned his heels and walked back to his car. He was still confused, was his intention to make up with her the best decision he made for the sake of the relationship that had ended between them. He was just confused, really confused.
But he chose not to think too much about it, shaking his head to clear his thoughts as he blasted Radiohead as loud as he can and the engine roaming.
