𝚍𝚎𝚜𝚒𝚍𝚎𝚛𝚒𝚞𝚖 || 𝑪𝒂𝒓𝒕𝒂𝒑𝒉𝒊𝒍𝒖𝒔/𝑱𝒐𝒔𝒆𝒑𝒉

two

my gosh, sorry for the late update.

• [Bel] •

"I've been thinking.." Elias started, looking down at me as I continued to sheer the wooly bugs. I turned my head up to him, a smile gracing my lips.

"Yes, Elias?" I inquired quietly, letting go of the once ball of floating fluff, for it to only fly off around me. It was a beautiful day, the sky partially cloudy, but bright, giving a golden glow to the greenery and stone around, as well as the house. My perfect home... For now.

How bitter. "I wonder if I should get another apprentice." My fantasy shattered as if I didn't see this coming. I look up to the sky, reminded of how I'm bound to the ground, like a bird that cannot fly. A sigh escapes my lips, though my smile never fades. What was I expecting?

"It's only been a few months now, hasn't it?" I giggled, dusting my dress off to pull up knees to my chest, partially hiding my face.

"Am I too much?" Elias shook his head, pulling me onto his lap and wrapping his arms around me. Was this his attempt at comforting me? How Painful.

"I'm going to marry you." The words floated out of his mouth as he relaxed around me, becoming comfortably limp against my figure. I closed my eyes, seeing stormy grey-blue eyes glaring right back at me.

"There are no more Wooly Bugs to sheer, the sky darkens as it sets to approach dusk. Shall we head inside, Elias?" My words are chosen carefully as I touched heavily on the change of topics. He snapped himself out of his trance, getting the hint and nodding lightly.

"Yes. I'm sure Silky will have prepared dinner by now." He stood up, taking me with him as he walked inside, placing me down on the sofa gently. I look away, a blank expression on my pale face as my dark ivory green eyes seemed to shine distantly.

Silver Lady rushed around effortlessly, dressing the table with her mouth-watering home-cooked food. I stand when everything is in place, smiling at Silky as she gently lead me to the table and sat me down. I looked up to Elias, before tying my long hair back and looking down to the food again.

"Thank you for this meal, Silky." I spoke softly, picking up the knife and fork and slowly starting to munch away at my food. I felt his eyes on me the entire time. It put me off.

"I'm done." I stood up, holding my hands in front of me and bowing lightly. "Again, thank you." Elias followed my leaving figure, holding his hand out to me. "Wait, Bel-"

He looked at my half-eaten plate of food, sighing as he heard the clicks of my heeled boots climbing the stairs. I walked into my room, letting out my hair again as it cupped my face gently, the darker skies casting hues of deep oranges and bright yellows, making the transitions to blue look green.

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A month had passed, my hair being left to grow out as my magic continued to aid me in my current task to become a mage. Elias had adapted to being much more mindful about my schedules, which left only a bittersweet taste in my mouth.

He worked so hard for me to be true to him, as if he'd fooled himself into thinking I'd accepted him as my groom. I sigh as I stare at the partially empty plate in front of me, before standing up and looking out the window.

Elias had been out for a little while, gathering information for something he'd not been willing to share with me. Holding my hands to my stomach, I stare solemnly at the scenery outside, before turing to Silver Lady with a small smile.

"I shall practice in my studies, when Elias comes home, wish him well for me. I will not be joining for dinner tonight." I could see a certain kind of sadness in Silver Lady's eyes, to which my smile only widened with pity. This is what I am to do to those around me.

I reached my hand out to her, resting my hand on her head as I saw her expression change to one of comfort. I bit my lip, closing my eyes as I let my hand fall and turned away. "I'll see you tomorrow, Silky." And with that, I was off to the study as if I'd made it my own room.

Potions and jars were littered across the few desks, sized beakers full with medicines and others with poisons in making. I was sharpening my skills, to be able to make everything naturally with the components of magic. Something I hadn't shown Elias as of yet.

Many tiny vials everywhere on my body, for various situations I may find myself in. Busy pouring a balm into yet another vial for myself, my vision faded to black suddenly, the feeling of falling being lost to the numbness.

The only thing I can be sure of is myself, Bel Yua Hatori. Abandon hopes of family, Abandon hopes of friends. There is nothing truly good in this world, not for me at least. I watch as she stands there, staring at me in her wedding dress that fits her more than perfectly.

Held in the arms of Elias. I can only cover my hot face with my hands, cold as ice to touch. I don't know what I feel then, but the sight makes me uncomfortable now. Only I have to accept it as truth, to the day I die.

Chise Hatori, my Twin, will always take what has been mine. And I will never be allowed to fight this fate I have.

I woke with a flinch, tears falling from my widened eyes. I sat up from the couch next to the window, realizing someone had picked me up from the floor and moved me quite some time ago.

It was already dark out. I sighed with an untrue smile, lifting my trembling hand to run through my hair, pushing the unruly strands away from my face. Slowly, I curl up, hugging my knees to my chest and crying silently into my arms.

Reading the future has always been my innate gift, knowing what's to come has always had it's pluses, and it's minuses. I have no wish to keep this ability, yet I have no intention to rid myself of it either. I simply cannot.

Thus I hide myself most times of the day, so no one see one of my happenings to question me later about. I just have to stay quiet, act like the apprentice and fiancee they want me to be. Until the day she comes to take my life away yet again, I will cry to myself in this cold room I've locked myself in.