I woke up this morning, with weird feeling, like I wasn't sad or depressed and lonely , I felt ok you could say, like I was happy, haven't felt that in a while. I got up and took a shower In the e-suit and got dressed and did some light make up like this
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It was 9:30 now and I went down stairs, no one was awake so I thought I'd make breakfast as I was in a good mood, I took out stuff to make chocolate chip pancakes, around 10:20 I was finishing up the last few and I heard someone coming down stairs, Soon pair of arms rapped around me, I jumped as I wasn't excepting that, Jaden: "did I scare you, I just wanted a hug" Kenzie: "yes you did scare me, now don't scare me again" I glared at him I get scared easily when someone touched me even if he was just hugging me, that's because of Zack, I'm vary jumpy and get paranoid vary easily, I could feel my eyes water get watery just think about it, when Jaden hugged me it scared me because I thought of Zack and what he did to me, he would grab me and push me of shove me out of no where, I let one of the tears builting up inside me slip "shit" I whispered Jaden: "hey, you ok" he said calmly, no I'm not okay Kenzie: "yah I'm fine" Jaden: "are you sure, I seemed to scare you pretty bad, I'm sorry if I did something wrong" Kenzie: "no, no you didn't do anything thing wrong, it just scared me, and I just thought of a bad memories" my voice shaky now Jaden: "you want to talk about it" yes, actually that sounded nice, but I didn't want to put my past problems on to him Kenzie: "no, I'm fine, um can you get the rest of the boys, I made chocolate chip pancakes" Jaden: "yah and if you ever need to talk, I'm all ears" Kenzie: "thanks jay" he nodded and went off, I finished up the pancakes and put them all out for the boys, soon enough they all came running down.
While we're eating every little movement any of the boys other then Bryce scared me, I would flinch a little, and my heart wouldn't stop racing, every memory from those 5 months came flooding back, I know none of the boys would do anything like that, but I just meet them. wow I just meet them and I'm already scared of them, this is why I have major trust issues.
1 hour later
I was just washing the dishes, because they can't seem to do there own, but I don't really mind, o had my thoughts but then a voice snapped me out, Jaden: "hey" I turned around Kenzie: "hi" Jaden: "want some help, I thought one of the boys would help clean up but, I guess that be me" he laughed Kenzie: "sure, you can dry for the wet dish's please" he nodded and got to work, after a bit of silence he spoke again Jaden: "umm, I know you said you didn't want to talk, but you seemed really jumpy after this morning, and I guess I could say scared just when we were eating" Kenzie: "Jaden it's fine" I finished up the dishes and was going to walk away, I was done with is conversation Jaden: "well, Kenzie it doesn't seem fine" he shouted obviously annoyed now, I stoped in my tracks and started to cry, he just made everything worst when he yelled at me Kenzie: "don't yell at me" I squeaked out, as I chocked in my tears Jaden: "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to shout, you just don't seem fine, and I'm also really nosey" Kenzie: "no it's fine, you just care, I'm not used to people caring about me, Bryce didn't even care about me till 4 days ago" he nodded and went over the living room gesturing me to follow, we sat in the couch, Jaden: "so talk to me" I took a deep breath, ok kenz you can do this
Jadens pov
Kenzie: "me and bryces parents die about 6 months ago, that set me in a bad track, then I thought I found someone who really did love me, I could tell him everything, and he would be there and he would let me just ramble and he would get mad, but then one day he let him true self go, um" she stop for a second and wiped the tears that were marking there way down her cheeks, I could tell this was hard for her to talk about " um, he started to abuse me and I guess you could say rape me, because if I said no he would just hit me" this stuff this poor girl has been though, no wonder she was tariffed "but I stayed with him because he actually under stood me sometimes when he would be nice and him self, and I guess I was also kind of scared to leave him, but after about 5 months my best friend Blake found out and you could say put him in his place" she laughed a bit, I could tell she didn't think it was funny, she was just wanting to deny in, "and I guess, just the touch of someone I barely knew, just scared me and it just brought back the the memories and feeling of what he did to me" Jaden: "Kenzie trust me, we would never hurt you, and I'm so sorry you had to go thought that, also I will be more careful" Kenzie: "don't be sorry you did nothing wrong, i mean I just spilled my heart out to a stranger" She put her head in her hands, I felt bad
Kenzie pov Jaden: "well, let's go do something today" he smiled, I really did feel better, I never really talked about it with anyone and if felt nice to get it off my chest Kenzie: "thanks jaden" We looked in each other's eyes, He cleared his throat Jaden: "yah, We should go to the beach" Kenzie: "yah that sounds fun" we both got up I went to my room to get ready, he went to his and went to tell the boys as well.
Small skip
Kenzie: "ahhhhh, Bryce put me down" then I was submerged in the cold water "Omg it's freezing" Josh: "aww is little Kenzie cold" he put his bottom lip out, I stared at him, Griffin: "if you could kill someone by looking at them, josh would be gone by now" they all laughed, the I shot my gaze the laughing boys and they stoped instantly, Josh: "Bryce, why is your sister so mean" Kenzie: "don't test me" I splash water on him and giggled a bit Josh: "oh so that's how we're doing this, okay your on" soon all the boys were in the water and we were in a huge water fight, todays been a pretty good day other then this morning. Also that I think, tayler was it, wasn't coming over anymore that's why we went it the beach.
We were home now, and all doing are own things, I was currently eating a cereal before I go to bed, Bryce: "why are you so smiley" he teased Kenzie: "I guess, I'm just happy" Bryce: "I knew we would be able to cheer you up" he playfully punched my shoulder and I and copied his action punching him back, I like this feeling of happiness
Another's notes I have no idea if this is good, it's only my second book and my last one I didn't like vary much and wasn't put together really well and has a fast ending, but I actually really liking this, and I will have more time to write because online school ends in a few days.
