Lily Rose

Chapter 3

Today marks a whole week since the boys arrived last weekend. It has been eventful, they try to talk to me all the time and get me to join in on family games and activities but I just spent most of the week in my room. I'm trying to keep as much distance as possible from everyone which is actually proving to be quite simple as I've been grounded for the past week.

My mom wasn't very happy with how I ran out the house and slammed the door in her face last week so she's basically grounded me for that. Honestly, it's the perfect scenario, I can just spend most of my time in my room and not be bothered by whatever family bonding activity is happening downstairs.

And the best part of all, I didn't have to go to Wayne's house this weekend because of it. So her grounding me actually turned out to resolve all the problems I had. I can't lie, this is probably the best thing she's done for me so far.

I'm half tempted to get myself in situations to purposefully have myself grounded. It's definitely one way to go about my problems, I just want to stay in my room and it's the perfect situation when that's exactly where mom wants me to be aswell.

It's a win win.

Granted, it is lonely, but when your mind is ill it's just easier to lay in bed by yourself and not have people questioning everything you do and why you seem so different. I feel the need to hide away from the world. It's so hard to face the day to day life and see everyone living, seeming happy when every day I wake up I'm just haunted by the same miserable days. It's a cycle that never seems to end.

I groan into the many pillows I have neatly laid on my bed when I realise I have to go back to school on Monday.

I hate being at school, I hate being at home. I genially have no safe place to go. Except from the park I like to go to, but I can't spend all my time there.

"Lily, dinners ready" I hear my sisters voice yell from downstairs. I sigh, I don't know why but I haven't had much of an appetite lately. I just don't feel like eating a lot of the time and I'm not very hungry now.

"Coming!" I shout back as I slowly lift myself from my bed. I didn't want to socialise or eat but I knew I had no choice. It was best not to get on my moms bad side right now.

I straighten out my plain black t-shirt whilst I quickly brush through my hair with my fingers getting rid of any unwanted knots, desperately trying to make myself look a little more presentable.

I approached the kitchen to see everyone sat down at the dining table, I saw Harry smile at me whilst he pat down the empty seat next to him and Gemma.

Everyone was dressed and ready for the day, mom and Gemma had light makeup on and their hair done and I was still in my pyjamas, looking how I woke up.

"You alright?" I ask politely whilst I sit down at my seat, starring at the big portion size of spaghetti in front of me. Harry nods his head whilst he eats.

"Is this for me?" I quickly ask hoping it got mixed up.

"Yeah" Gemma replies besides me whilst shoving a mouthful of spaghetti in her mouth.

"Is there something wrong?" Harry asks after he sees my anxious expression.

"It's just a lot of food" I said giving a nervous laugh.

"It's good for you, you need some meat on them bones" Aden jokes opposite me whilst flashing me a cheeky smile.

I awkwardly smile back "Yeah I guess" I say as I start to slowly eat my food.

"So Lily you back at school on Monday?" Lewis speaks up when suddenly all the eyes in the room look at me. I started to feel slightly tense and uncomfortable.