Me and him (dating my dads best friend)

Bonus Chapter 2

"roxy, roxy are you OK" viv sounds panicked, I try to answer but I can't speak. My body shakes uncontrollably, I can't move my eyes off him. I think I've stopped breathing, I struggle to catch my breath. I suffered with panic attacks for a while after witnessing Joe's suicide attempt and this feels frighteningly similar.

I put my head between my legs and work hard to get my breathing to steady. I can tell people are looking at me, I can feel eyes on me. As I finally work up the courage to look up I hear Kennys voice.

I fly into his arms and cry into his neck, he asks me what's wrong but I can't answer him.

"we were sunbathing then she saw a relative and freaked" viv states.

"a relative" Kenny sounds confused.

"i think she said he was her mom's ex husband"

I feel Kenny go stiff "Joe's here"

I nod against his chest, he strokes my hair as I continue to sob.

"what's up with this guy, is he Hitler or something" viv asks.

"he's definitely something" Kenny comments coldly.

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Kenny tries his best to convince me that things will be OK but I find it very hard to belive him. I understand that the boat is large and it's unlikely I will bump into him again but I know I'm not that lucky. Were in the middle of the ocean and won't be docking for 3 days so I'm stuck here. Kenny offers for us to cut the vacation short and leave the cruise when we dock at St barts but I won't allow Joe to have any control over my life.

We have been looking forward to this cruise for months and I won't let Joe ruin it, I can only hope that kenbys right and that I don't see him.

"i had better not see the prick, if I do I'll throw him overboard" Kenny fumes.

"as much as I would enjoy seeing that I don't want you getting in any trouble, he's not worth it"

"how about I wait until we're in international waters, I wouldn't be committing a crime then"

I laugh and sit on his lap, "I'm not sure we will be traveling through international water and I don't think it actually works like that"

Kenny looks crest fallen, I know he would do anything for me but I won't let him do anything that could jeprodise the career he worked so hard for.

"of all the cruises he had to come on this one" I laugh, I know I shouldn't but I can't hold the laughter in.

"what part of this is funny" kenny tried to give me a stern look but his face cracks as he looks at me.

"I wonder who he's here with, maybe hes moved on to twins" I joke.

"he does like to keep it in the family" Kenny says with a laugh.

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As we take our seat at the resteraunt I assure viv that after my earlier episode I'm feeling better. I don't tell her the full story about Joe, I just say he was married to my mother and that he caused a lot of trauma to my family. Luckily she doesn't push for further information. I don't see Joe for the rest of the night and I'm greatful. I know I will see him at some point during the next 2 weeks but I plan on keeping my distance. I hope he doesn't attempt to speak to me, I don't think Kenny would be able to control himself.

We quickly forget about joe and enjoy our night, after an amazing meal we head to the lounge to watch the night's entertainment. The lounge is full but we manage to find a table on the balcony, before I can tell the waitress what I want Bob orders a bottle or cristal and orders that she keep them coming.

"let's toast to a great vacation with great friends" Bob says as he raises his glass.

We click our glasses with his, Kenny laughs as Bob necks the champagne back like it's meerly water. Viv gives Bob a dirty look before ramming her elbow into his large stomach,he laughs in response.

"honestly I can't take you anywhere nice, you would fit in better at a hoe down than a 5 star cruise" she spits.

Bob takes no notice, hes not the type of guy to change his behaviour to fit in with his surroundings. He is who is and he won't apologise for it, I respect him for that.

" oh you know you wouldn't change me vivian, I know one part at least that makes you happy" he says with a wink, vivs face goes red. It's obvious what he's talking about but no one comments, Kenny just winks at me as he contains his smirk.

"you see what I have to put up with" viv replies, I can hear the humour in her voice.

"I'm going to touch up my lipstick" I say as I stand and grab my clutch.

"ill come with, I could use a little walk after that large meal" viv stands and links her arm with mine.

"don't use too much energy, your gonna need it when wr& get back to the room" Bob calls after us, I can hear Kenny laugh which makes me giggle too.

"that man will be the death of me, he loves to act the fool" viv shakes her head but she doesn't sound angry, she seems amused.

We walk to the bathroom when suddenly I feel something sharp against my face. It all happens so fast that it takes me a moment to realise someone has slapped my face. I look to the side and see viv staring ahead in shock, she looks like she's ready to pounce.

"what the hell" I shout as I turn and look at my attacker. My heart stops when I see her.

"Helen" I gasp, my mother is stood before me, steam is coming out of her ears she's so angry. We haven't spoken in years but I don't think I deserved such a violent greeting.

"you couldn't help yourself could you, you found out we were happy again so you had to worm your way back in didn't you"

"Helen what the fuck are you talking about"

"your here with Joe, I knew he wouldn't come on a luxury cruise with his colleagues. I've learnt not to be so niave. How could you do this to me again, how sick do you have to be to have an affair with your mother's  husband"

"oh wait you did it before why wouldn't you do it again" Helen spits.

"you know I didn't know who he was, I'm not having an affair with Joe I'm here with Kenny" I yell.

"you really do have some nerv to have both your men on the same boat, what's your plan to swap beds every night"

I look to viv, I can only imagine what she must be thinking. I'm surprised to see she's no longer by my side.

"Helen" Kenny snaps as he approaches with viv hot on his tail.

"the clueless husband is here, did you know your slut of a wife is up to her old tricks again" the venom coming from her actually makes goosebumps rise on my skin.

"Helen go back to your cabin your obviously drunk"

Helen laughs, actually it's more of a witches cackle. "you really think it's a coincidence that Joe and roxanne are both on the same cruise at the same time. Grow some balls man"