Me and him (dating my dads best friend)

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"why is she here" i hiss to my father as he holds my hand. The she im refering to is my mother, im not liking these impromptu visits. I don't want to see her and today isnt the time or place, i dont have the patience to deal with her. We havent spoken since she admitted that she should have aborted me. I sometimes wished she had, things wouldnt have been so messed up. If i hadnt been born maybe my dad could have had a real family and been happy. Im to blame for his and my mothers unhappiness and its almost too much to bare.

My dad looks over at Helen then back at me with pleading eyes, he doesnt want me to cause an argument in the doctors office. " Helen wanted to be here to support you"

I sigh and shake my head, she obviously just feels bad that she suggested that i have an abortion. Slimy dragon. I see right through her and her fake interest.

Helen takes the seat beside my dad and gives me a big fake smile, "I wanted to be here for you, this is a big day"

" does what i want not count for shit ", Helen acts like she doesnt hear me and continues to smile sweetly at me.

My dad doesnt say anything, hes nervous. hes been on edge since the doctor called me the day before. Im not worried, its normal that they would want to keep an eye on me since i had been in the car accident. It still hasnt sunk in that im going to be a mom, i dont think it will until i start to show.

Were all starting to get impatient, my dad keeps looking at his rolex and Helen taps her Prada shoes on the tiled floor. It driving me crazy, i dont understand why Doctors schedule appointments slots if they keep you waiting forever. i look at my phone and see were already 20 minutes behind, The receptionist had shown us into the office when we arrived but had left us there. I watched the door as i waited for him to enter, i swear i was gonna burn a hole in the door. My wishing for him to enter works becausefinally a graying black man wearing a white coat enters the room.

He smiles and shakes our hands, he motions for us to sit once again and takes his seat behind the desk. I cant help but to smile at him, he looks so smart and friendly. Im happy that this man will be my doctor throughout my pregnancy.

" how are you all today, thank you for coming to see me today" Dr Pierce says as he pulls a folder from his desk and proceeds to look over it.

" is everything ok, were worried" my dad says.

Dr pierce drops the folder and takes off his glasses, he has a seriou look on his face "i asked you to come in today as i recieved your results from the hospital the day before last and i noticed something"

I stop breathing, what did he notice. Was there something wrong me or wrong with the baby. I know i dont want the baby right now but i dont wish it any harm.

" is Roxanne ok, what do the tests show" my dad grips my hand tighter. Even Helen looks concerned, her mouth has formed a hard line.

The doctor shifts in his seat, i can see that hes uncomfortable and doesn't want to give me the news. I wish he would just rip off the band aid and tell me whats going on.

"When you were admitted to hospital after the car accident we took x-rays and blood samples and you were told that you were pregnant, well it turns out there was another girl called Roxanne in the ER that night and it appears that her results have been mixed up."

I dont hear anything else he says, my mind leaves. I cant process what hes saying its too much. I hear him apologize and i hear him say that im not and have never been pregnant but im in shock. i just want to stand and leave, if im not pregnant i dont need to be sat in the doctors offce right now. I can be out living my life, i dont have to worry about diapers and bottles i can have a life.

"im very sorry Roxanne" the doctor says as i stand, we shake hands once more and i leave.

I nod and walk out of the hospital, once the doors are closed firmly behind me i jump on the spot and punch the air. I feel like ive won the lottery, if i had have been pregnant i would have loved that baby but im grateful that i havent brought any children into my messed up life,#

My dad smirks as i dance on the spot, " you look happy"

"of course shes happy, shes a smart young girl shes not ready for a baby yet" helen pulls me in for a hug, although its awkward it doesnt feel fake.

"lets go to the bar" i announce.

Helen looks like shes up for it but my dad shakes his head as he looks at his watch, "its only 11"

Helen shrugs, "its 5 somewhere"

In a matter of minutes my whole world has been turned upside down, all i can think of is eating shellfish and drinking.

"i think i want seafood, lets get an early lunch"

I may have only thought i was pregnant for 2 weeks but i had abstained from everything that could cause harm to a baby, i hadnt exorcised , drank, ate shell fish or even eat nits. i was about to get drunk on all of the above.

"is im not pregnant with my married lovers baby party acceptable" i ask as we get in the car.

My dad sighs, he had put my married lover to the back of his mind and i had just reminded him. He hasnt mentioned it but i know hes dissapointed by my behaviour, he would kill joe if he knew.

Helens phone rings but she presses off the line sending the call to voicemail.

" trouble in paradise " i ask secretly hoping there is.

Helen shakes her head, " no its just my husband hes been a little needy since he was mugged"

"oh god id he ok" i ask.

"He was mugged, i wondered where he had gotten the bruises" my dad replies as he drives us to a seafood place at the docks.

"You know Giuseppe" I ask.

"Yes we've met"

"Have they caught the muggers" I fain interest.

"No, he couldn't get a good look at them and there's no CCTV on that street. He's ok though"

I change the subject as I'm really not wanting to put a downer on our celebrations.

We take our seat at the table outside the restaurant and wait for the waiter to stop by our table.

"A bottle of champagne and 4 tequila shots" I declare happily.

I turn to my dad and Helen, "what do you guys want"