We pull into the drive way and get out of the car, after we go inside the house and they take seats ont the couches in the living room. I just stand there not knowing what to do, until katy speaks up.
"so....Jen, is something you want to tell us?" she asked me. I kept my gaze to the floor, not really wanting to tell them, much too afriad and scared of they might say or think about me and my family.
"no, why?" I try to say as casual as I can make come out.
"Because you seem sad, lonely or depressed. And we just want to make sure that your okay." Mariah tells me and you dont even know how thankful I'am to have friends like them.
"Nothings wrong, well...." I began but I just can't pull myself to do it and I don't know why! It makes me so frustrated that I don't have the guts to do it. That I'm too much of a coward to tell someone, to tell someone everything and possibly make my life allot easier or a whole lot worst. But its not that simple, you don't understand how it is when hes threatening you, saying he will hurt not just me, but my family too, and I can't even picture it.
"Well, what?" Katy said with an expression I couldn't read.
"uhhhg!" I let out a frustrated sigh.
"Hey, whats wrong?" Mariah asked me, rubbing circles on my back in a soothing way.
"okaay, but.....just please understand." I say in a begging tone, maybe more to myself then to them.
"Well what is it? we can't promise anything but we'll try." Katy said.
"okaay, so....Matt. He's, uhh...umm....abusive?" I tell them in a way while looking down at my fiddling hands.
"Okay..what do you mean?" Mariah asked, wanting more detail. I'm not sure if I can, am I strong enough? Will I ever be?
"Ever since my Mom and Matt got together, which was about 7 or 8 years ago." I stop and look up at them reassuringly, Katy just ushered for me to go on.
"Well he would always beat me, Shawn, and my Mom. Even when she was pregnant with Jazmyne." As I said this my voice cracked and a tear slipped out, I hate crying! I feel so weak and vulnerable.
They said nothing but just looked at me with emotionless expressions. Thats not exactly what I expected, I thought they would give me that lecture "Why didn't you tell someone before?! why didn't your mom call the police?" But no, they just sat there.....until Katy sprung from her spot on the floor and pulled me into a bone crushing bear hug..
"It's okaay, babe" She said to me and honestly it felt good to have hug from one, one from a person that might understand you.
"So, is that what you would lie about?" Mariah asked me.
"what?" I asked not wanting to tell her that I lied to them about my bruises and cuts for my asshole step-dad.
"All of your bruises...I got them from my kick-boxing class. I fell off my bike. Ohh, and that one time you were in the hospital because of the "Car Accident". " Mariah said and she looked kind of hurt and maybe angry, I mean how could i blame her? I did lie to them over a scumbag.
"I'm sorry." i said to them and Katy looked at me sympathetically.
"You don't have to apologize. I'm sorry, I'm sorry that you have to go through this." Katy said and put her arm around me.
"Why couldn't you tell anyone?" Katy asked after a couple minutes of silence.
"Because he told me not to or else he would hurt me and my family. maybe kill us? I don't know but...UHHGG! I just hate how he has that power over me and I can't do one fucken thing about it!" I said raising my voice at the end..
"Well have you told anyone else before?" Mariah asks.
"Yeah but, he beat me until I was almost dead, literally. He also threatened the person I told. So you guys can't say anything, okaay? please promise me, I don't want you guys to get hurt." I tell them honestly.
They both nod their heads and after we watch a movie, Mariah and Katy both fell asleep, as I just lay there awake not being able to fall asleep. I pull out my phone and go on Facebook, thers one new message, I open it.
**Facebook message from: Ruben Johnson*** ^ (R)uben....(J)ennifer ^
Hey Beautiful ;) -R
Hey Cx -J
Wyd? -R
Nothing what about you? :) -J
The same. <3-R***End of message***
I was messaging Ruben then I saw a darkness come over me and thats the last I remember.......
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