Bad Girl Made Worse - ON HOLD

You don't have to lie

"Ano na? Why is everyone so quiet?"

Itong si Jazz lang ang maingay sa amin. She's happy with her life, and I'm happy as her sister. I just can't be fully happy dahil maraming nag-iba simula noong dumating siya.

"Nothing, Jazz. We're just off. The weather is cold, kaya... medyo tinatamad."

Great, Sof. Alam ko din namang bad trip ka. It's been two weeks since nalaman naming mag step brothers pala sina Zac at Kyzer. It's been a week noong nalaman ni Sofia na si Trina ang gusto ng crush niya at kakabalik lang ng kapatid kong first love niya. Haba ng hair ni Kyzer.

May kumatok sa pinto at napalingon kami doon.

"Pwede kay Jazzmer?"

Tinanguan naman namin si Zac kaya lumabas na si Jazz ng kwarto.

"Girls, honestly what's up?"

"There's nothing up with me. Ewan ko dyan kay Sof."

Sang ayon ako sa sinabi ni Eris. Si Sofia ang laging wala sa mood. Does this have anything to do with Kyzer?

"Uh. I'm not really in the mood guys.Papasundo na ako sa driver. I think I need to rest."

She left without hearing our what we had to say.

"Tara na nga. May meeting ang mga Monarchs ngayon."

Naunang lumabas si Eris at sumunod naman kami. Kami ang huling nakarating kaya naabutan na naming nagsasalita sa harapan si Kuya Kevin.

"Throwback. That's what we need. Kailangan mag catch up tayo sa social networking ng ibang school. We need to encourage the students to visit our school website, and what better way to do that than showing them what Bay View was like?"

The meeting was quite interesting. Ako, si Kyzer at si Ivan ang na-assign na maghanap ng pictures sa mga yearbooks samantalang ang iba ay nahati sa website designing, column writing at iba pa.

"Jef, kita nalang tayo bukas sa library?"

Uh. Flashes of him saying the same thing came to my mind. No. Those were not real. Those were... sweet nightmares.

"Tell me, Ivan. Do I have a choice?"

Sumimangot naman siya. You better not be happy that we're going to spend time together, Alcantara.

"Pwede naman tayong maging magkaib-"

Bago pa niya matapos ang sasabihin niya ay pinutol ko na ito.

"Cut the crapt, Ivan. I don't like spending time with you, and your girlfriend doesn't want you spending time with me. You better keep Trish happy or she'll rip that face off."

"Montreal bakit mo linalandi ang boyfriend ko?"

Oh here she comes again.

"Oh please Trish, I can shove Ivan down your throat anytime so why don't you get your ass off my business? Hindi ka ba nakikinig? Kami ang na-assign sa pictures ng website."

She rolled her eyes at me. Linagay niya din ang isa niyang kamay sa kanyang baywang.

"Kung ayaw mo talaga siya kasama, edi sana nag-object ka. Tutal malakas ka naman sa head ng school."

She said those words as if she was mocking me. Tumayo ako ng maayos para makitang mas mataas ako sa kanya.

"I don't whine when someone asks me to do a job I don't like. Haven't you heard about professionalism? Wag mo nga akong ibaba sa level mo Patricia. Alam nating dalawa na hindi mo ako katulad."

Hindi ko nakita ang reaction niya sa sinabi ko dahil umalis na kaagad ako. Narinig kong tinawag ni Lance ang pangalan ko, pero sanang ang dramatic exit ko kung lilingon pa ako, diba?

"Jace! Saan ka pupunta?"

Napalingon ako kay Zac na mukhang kapareho ko ng pupuntahan.

"Cafeteria. I need a drink."

Sinabi niyang sabay nalang kami dahil doon din naman ang punta niya.

In short, sabay kaming nag cut ng classes. Wala naman kasing gagawin ngayon sa P.E.

"Hindi ba pinagkakatiwalaan ni Patricia ang boyfriend niya kaya ganoon siya maka-asta?"

Nagkibit balikat ako sa tanong niya.

"Siguro nakita niya kung paano ako niloko ni Ivan kaya naman natatakot siyang gawin."

"Yeah, maybe you're right. Ano ba ang mga moves sayo ni Ivan?"

Napaisip ako. Paano nga ba ako napasagot ng tarantadong iyon?

"Typical cheesy things I can't believe I fell for."

Humalakhak siya sa sinabi ko.

"Like?"

"He sang for me, taught me how to play guitar. Alam niyang mahal ko ang music, and he was equally passionate, so isa yun sa mga common things na meron kami."

Tumango naman siya. Then he gestured for me to tell him more. Uh.. ano pa ba?

"He'd always text me good morning, good night, and I love you."

Now that I think of it, he seemed real. He seemed genuine and sincere. Well... maybe that's why he SEEMED.

"So sweet naman pala eh. Meron pa ba?"

Believe me Zac, his gestures were plenty. He'd carry my bag, he'd buy me lunch, he'd encourage me to study, he'd help me with math. Kung di ko lang nalamang pinagpustahan lang nila Beatrix ito, iisipin kong he did care for me.

"Marami eh."

"Sobrang effort naman ata niyan."

He looked like someone who did look like someone who gave a fuck when we were together.

"Yup. He was convincing."

Sumang ayon naman siya sa sinabi ko.

"Do you think he loved you?"

Umiling ako.

"Edi sana wala akong galit at planong paghihiganti ngayon."

"Do you think you loved him?"

Hmmm. Ewan ko. Pero, ang sakit naman ata sa pride kung sasabihin kong oo, minahal ko ang gagong pinagtripan ako.

Dahan dahan akong umiling.

"I think I only liked him not loved at masakit lang sa pride na linoko ako kaya galit ako."

Ngumisi siya sa akin ng nakakaloko.

"I know we're not the best of friends, but you don't have to lie."

Yun muna guys ah. Sorry kung matagal. XD