She Who [FIN]

She Who 93

2 years after
01/01 • Wednesday
Email

NOT OUR ANNIVERSARY, BUT STILL CELEBRATING 2 YEARS OF US BEING TOGETHER

me Jan 1
to franquin.suazo

Hi, mister hahaha I know you may find this weird. Me sending my message thru email, and me celebrating our two years on the day of new year. I'll get so cheesy and emotional, but I know you'll bear with me hahaha lol!

I still remember that day when I first saw you during my freshmen years. You were on your third year back then and playing in the university's basketball team. I was excited to get into college because I'll be seeing college boys! Yes!! Hahaha I came from an all girls school during high school, so I was looking forward to seeing boys around and having them as my classmates hahahaha.

I also met Hilary and Gold during those times. We were all clueless kaya kami kami nalang din ang nagsama. Resulting to us, sharing the same apartment.

We went to the gym to watch basketball because other students were so excited to watch kaya napasama kami. And there, I saw you. This sounds so corny, but I felt chills when I first laid my eyes on you. My eyes were only watching you. As in ikaw lang. kahit saan ka tumakbo sa court, sumusunod eyes ko! I concluded na crush na kita hahahahaha and then I knew that you had a girlfriend so my plan on hitting on you was stopped hahaha siyempre I should respect your relationship. Akala ko naman kasi nung una single ka, pero sino nga bang niloko ko? Hahaha of course may girlfriend ka!!!

So I settled myself with just watching you from afar. Tapos ayon nalaman ko na break kayo ni Mercury, kaya I started messaging you kaso wala kang reply hahahaha so medyo discouraged ako. Tas nalaman ko nagbalikan kayo! Edi lalong discouraged si ako!

Gold was already telling me to stop my fantasy with you. So ako naman lowkey pumayag. Tas shits happened. Credits sa tito ko. I contented myself with just watching you habang namo-mroblema ako sa tito ko. Somehow you became my breath of fresh air from all my problems.

Third year, nalaman kong break na uli kayo ni Mercury. So I decided to take my chance kahit wala naman talaga. But for the first time you replied kaso sobrang snob mo. Pero kahit ganoon ka, I was still happy that you see my messages. (Grabe mister, ganoon ako kahulog na hulog sa 'yo!)

But of course my tito's giving me a hard time again. Tapos Mercury's bullshit happened pa kaya that time, I really decided not to talk to you or involve myself to you ever again.

But fate's really playing on us because after some months, I met your mom. Ang bait ng nanay mo! And when you asked me to help her cope up, I decided not because of you, but because tita touched something inside my heart. I was also longing for a maternal love, so I helped her. Not because of you, mister. Hahahaha!

But yeah, while on the process of helping your mom, I fixed my life too. I finally had the courage to speak up and overcome my fear. Yuan helped me through that. Napakulong at napatalsik si tito. Finally, I got the peace I really wanted.

I realized that fear shouldn't be a hindrance for us to scream and shout what we really want. Kasi kung hindi tayo sisigaw at lalaban, paano natin mapapatay ang lumalaking apoy na tumutuhog sa katahimikan natin? It may be hard, but if we have people fighting the same struggles with us, people fight for us, they can become our strength too. Some people will take advantage of our weaknesses, some people will think that they are mighty, that they are powerful, pero we are too. We were given a voice to speak up lalo na kung may mali ng nangyayari at naapakan na ang karapatan at dignidad natin.

Odiba, mister. Grabeng realization 'yon.

And so, when everything was in their places na and I got my peace, bigla naman tayong laging magkasama! I was trying to think na hindi ako bibigay at hindi na ulit kita gugustuhin, but your actions were giving me hope.

But when you confessed naman, I chickened out. Kasi naman nambigla ka huhu, baka you're just good to everybody lang talaga and I should not give ang meaning to your actions.

Pero look at us now. It's been two years. Akalain mo 'yon nagtagal tayo. Hahaha charot. In the first months of our relationship akala ko never talaga tayo mag-aaway, pero charot lang pala haha. I remember our petty fights and our biggest fight, it took us two days to settle it kasi ang tigas ng ulo ko. But that because you didn't text me na you're not going home! I waited for you to go home pero wala kang pasabi. Hmp! Tapos malalaman ko nag-inom kayo at nakatulog ka sa bahay ng teammate mo! Siyempre ako 'tong paranoid akala ko nambabae ka na. But I know you won't do that because everyday, you're giving me the assurance na ako lang. Don't ever do that again! I remember your simple gestures too to make me smile. Our random talks about life. Our talks about our plans in life. It was the best two years of life with you. And I am happy that you came into my life.

Now, we're living together, you're an official player of San Mig Black and I get to see you playing in PBA. I am already a journalist in a news paper company and sometimes I get to cover your games.

I am glad that we are both reaching our dreams while supporting each other. I love you so much, babe. Cheers to more years for us!