5 𝙮𝙚𝙖𝙧𝙨 & 𝙞 𝙨𝙩𝙞𝙡𝙡 𝙡𝙤𝙫𝙚 𝙮𝙤𝙪| ✔

fourteen|🌹

십사|chapter fourteen
and i still love you
그리고 난 여전히 당신을 사랑합니다

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Jungkook|정국

I froze there when he said that, I stared at the door of his house he just went into, not moving an inch.

He brought up the past I was trying hard to forget, the past I was trying to avoid all this time.

It hurted more than anything when he just left and never came back, without even explaining things or saying a word that could reassure me.

I sighed and rested my forehead on the steering wheel, a tear leaving my eye but I quickly wiped it away, I brushed my hair back and shook my head, there's no time to cry.

I groaned and stepped on the gas, driving away from his house that seems to be inviting me in.

I rushed through the highway when my phone ringed, the ringtone blasting loudly as I remembered it was on bluetooth.

I pressed the answer button and continued to focus on the road, "Jungkook!" Jimin hyung screamed, Jimin hyung, well, Jimin became my manager when I became a model.

It was a coincidence we met at the same company, he planned on being a model but he said Yoongi hyung was the only one deserving to see his beauty so he just applied to be my manager.

Though it sucks when many people ship me with him, just because we're really close friends doesn't mean we're a couple! And please! My look of love for him? And Jealousy? I was just irritated because he puts other things first and I'm a very organized person.

"What the hell?" I said "Your on every nosy news pages!" He said making me frown a little, then it hit me, "Ahh! I was with Tae" I said "Ah, Tae- wait what?! TAE? AS IN TAEHYUNG?! OH SHIT! THAT'S HIM NOW?! OH MY! MY BEST FRIEND LOOKS GORGEOUS!" I heard him squeal loudly.

"Yeah" I said "Is that a yes to 'as in taehyung?' or a yes to 'he looks gorgeous'?" Jimin teased making me glare at the screen "Yes to is that Taehyung you dwarf" I said, hearing a scoff after.

"I need to catch up with him! What's his number?" Jimin asked again "He's busy" I said "Ugh! I'll pester you tomorrow, I need to go" He said and hanged up immediately.

I shook my head knowing Yoongi hyung probably arrived back home. I just continued my drive back to my house.

When I arrived I quickly went inside, I walked thru the halls until I reached the kitchen, I grabbed a snack and munched on it.

The sandwich dangling in my mouth as i opened the fridge and grabbed my banana milk.

I headed to my room and flopped down at my gaming table, opening the computer.

I was about to sip on my banana milk when I saw my wallpaper, it was a picture of Taehyung at one of his fashion shows, the one where one model was missing and the staffs told him to go.

Why do I know this? I also don't know.

I shook my head at my foolish self, chuckling lowly as I threw my head back and spun on my chair, sighing heavily, my heart clenching when I reminisce the day.

That day where I completely gave up on love.

He walked away, leaving me alone with many questions unanswered, he left me confused.

I was young...and foolish, I kept telling myself he used that against me and just used me for his pleasure but he wasn't that type of person, I knew that, that's why I loved him in the first place.

Because he's different.

He's like an angel sent from heaven, with a purer heart than anybody else.

But he left, and starting from there I had doubts, I had fears and uneasiness, feeling like all I believed was true was all a lie.

You hurt me Tae.

So badly that it was hard to have a fresh start and try again.

Now that I'm better you came back again, appearing and giving me the feeling of bliss when I know it was stupid.

But you were there, when I despretly wanted to have a bit of air, I saw your comforting smile, heard your comforting voice and felt your soft touches.

I feel bad for myself for having mixed feelings, I should hate you; I should resent you; I should have told you everything that I have been through, I should have said how much it hurted.

But seeing you for the first time in five years didn't bring back those bad thoughts and memories, it brought back the blissful feeling, heart fluttering and joy from the time we spent together.

I would hate to admit it, because I said it myself that I didn't want to see you again, but it was a lie.

I wanted to meet you again and...and tell you that I..I still love you.