5 𝙮𝙚𝙖𝙧𝙨 & 𝙞 𝙨𝙩𝙞𝙡𝙡 𝙡𝙤𝙫𝙚 𝙮𝙤𝙪| ✔

sixteen|🌹

십육|chapter sixteen
how can i trust you?
내가 어떻게 당신을 믿을 수 있습니까?

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Taehyung|태형

My heart squeezed at his tone of voice and face, so I just shut up the whole day, the tension was high on the car ride, but the kids were too young to notice, plus they were both sleepy.

I shifted my gaze to Jungkook when he still didn't utter a word to me, I shouldn't have said that.

I realize how bad that sounded, just like how I used to say it in the old days; He probably thinks I was giving him false hopes again, amd I couldn't help but feel bad.

"Jungkook I'm sorry" I mustered the courage to say "It's fine" He said monotonely "It's clearly not fine" I mumbled, I didn't want to cause a scene, the kids were here.

"Daddy...bottle" Yunbyeol said making me turn to the back, Jungwoo was already asleep, the straw of his banana milk still in his mouth though.

I smiled a little and took Jungwoo's banana milk and just let the straw be, then I garbbed Yunbyeol's milk, taking the cap off as I put it on her mouth, "You want to sleep baby?" I said and she nodded sleepily, the milk was probably taking an effect on her already.

I slumped back to my seat and fiddled with the carton of banana milk in my hand, it took a few minutes before I looked back again and saw them both peacefully sleeping.

"Jungkook" I started "I know it's not fine, and I want to fix things" I added nervously "Hyung...I know but.." He said, his hand gripping the steering wheel tighter "Hyung your doing it again" He said then pushed his hair back.

I bit my lip and looked down, "Jungkook I-I'm not giving you false hope" I stuttered "For you!" He said a bit loudly this time.

"You think your not giving false hope because you know your words mean a different meaning!" He said, a few tears building up in his eyes "Jungkook it's not that" I said "Then what is it?" He cried.

"We're friends right? I thought it was okay to say it" I said, a few tears going out my eyes as well, "That's exactly what I'm talking about!" He said "It's not like you still like me right?" I cried making him scoff.

"I hate myself for still loving you" He hissed "You keep giving me false hopes" He said, his eyes trying to focus on the road "Your too oblivious to notice that because you know yourself that your words meant a different meaning" I hiccuped and tried to wipe the uncontrolable tears coming out my eyes.

"But for me...for a guy who's so madly in love with you, even when your probably living a happy family life, it has a different meaning hyung" He sobbed as the car slowed down until it stopped.

"I'm not giving you false hope Kook!" I said as I looked at him "I love you okay?! I love you!" I said, louder than my usual voice, I heard him scoff and laugh, "That's the best joke yet Tae" He said sarcastically.

"Take me seriously!" I said "How hypocrytic" He chuckled "Your the one to say that when you treated me like a joke before, you treated my love for you like it's some dumb simple shit like puppy love!" He almost yelled.

"I had my reasons!" I argued "Reasons?"He chuckled "Some reasons are irrational" He added "Kook trust me this time" I said, trying to calm myself down, my sobs were getting louder and I didn't want to wake up the kids.

"Fuck!" I heard Jungkook curse as he gripped his hair harshly, my lips trembled as I grabbed his wrist and pulled it away from his hair softly.

I caressed his face slowly and put our foreheads together, "Trust me" I whispered in between my silent sobs and hiccups "How can I trust you?" He sobbed as his face melted to the warmth of my hand.

"I...I don't know what to do hyung, I feel lost again" He cried, pulling away, "Words hurt, even if it's not meant to" I cried at his words, I knew I hurted him so much with what I said, after all he was an innocent teenager back then who was just new to love, true love.

"Mommy...mommy..milk.." I heard Jungwoo said as he stirred into his sleep making me quickly wipe my tears away, I grabbed the banana milk in my lap and placed it on his hand, putting the straw through the hole again.

I slowly slumped back to my chair and sighed, rubbing my forehead, "I'll send you home" Jungkook silently said as he started to drive again, wiping his tears as he focused on driving while I focused on the scenery outside the window.