Reason to Live [Michaeng]

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MINA

When I came back after 10 minutes from ladies room, the Yoda was out of sight. Chaeyoung is playing with a different dog now.

"Where is the witch?" I asked when I was near her. Chaeyoung turn her head at me and look at me questionably. I just raise my eyebrow at her.

"Oh. You mean Tzuyu? She has gone home already. And, don't call her witch. She's my friend. She's kind why do you seem not to like her?" she said. I felt anger rise up within me.

I rolled my eyes at her before mumbling "Because of you." and I turn to other direction to walk out this place.

"Mina-unnie" She calls my name but I pretend not to hear.

How can she be so friendly with that woman? And she even seem to forgot that I'm with her for a second.

Did she even realize I had gone to the restroom?

She is so smiley smiley with that woman.

When I already out of the dog cafe, I felt a hand on my wrist. I turn around and saw Chaeyoung with a sad expression. Her eyes are wet with tears that are about to fall. My expression soften for a second but remembering what she did earlier I remain my stoic face. I yank my hand from her grasp and face her with my arms crossed on my waist.

"What?" I said in a harsh tone. Her close lips tremble, she bit the inside of her lower lips, few tears are falling slowly at her cheeks as her eyes on me with so much sadness.

"Don't leave me. Please." she utter those words with so much emotion that I felt a tug in my heart.

I remain frozen as I stood in front of her. I don't know what to do. I suddenly felt guilty making her like this.

She reach out for my wrist again which in my waist.

"Please don't leave me. Tell me what did I do wrong and I promise not to do it again. Just please, don't leave me." She said and then wrap her arms around me hug me as she cries in my chest.

What did I do? She didn't do anything wrong at all.

I was just.... Jealous?

I'm jealous.

I felt train wreck thru me with realization.

I'm jealous because I like her.

I like her very much.

I uncross my arms between us and let it travel in her back. Hugging her in return as I caresses her back to make her calm. Her cries subsided as she pulls her face inches away and look at me with puppy eyes. She is still sniffing from crying.

I look at her lovingly and wipe her dried tears in her cheeks. "Don't cry. I'm sorry. You didn't do anything wrong. I was just sad mad for a minute there." I reason out. It's the truth but I don't want to directly admit to her that I was jealous.

"Why are you sad mad?" she question like a child.

"Because, I felt ignored when you were talking to you new friend." I said honestly.

"So, it is my fault. I'm sorry." she said looking down.

"It's not. It's my fault I'm just a bit selfish and I want your attention to me. But, I know you have other people that you need to gave your attention too. I'll control my emotions better." I admitted and said. I don't want her blaming herself.

She looks up at me as smile finally appeared on her face. Her right hand suddenly landed on my right cheek as she caress it.

"Don't. We don't control emotions unnie. If we do, then it's just acting and not emotion, real emotions. I'm sorry if you felt I didn't gave you my attention. But to tell you the truth, my attentions are always yours. Though I might be talking to others, you're still in my mind. I know when you're near me and when you're not because my eyes are always looking for you. Even when I was talking with Tzuyu earlier and I felt you're walking away from me my eyes followed you when you walk inside the ladies room. So please, don't think about not getting my attention at all because it has always been yours. Don't worry for being selfish because I do felt selfish too. I'm selfish of wanting you on my side. Just you being a meter away from me, worries me. So please, don't leave me." she said those words with sincerity and smile at me.

I felt worms and butterflies in stomach. My world lights up.

I felt so much happy.

I think she likes me too.