Reason to Live [Michaeng]

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[200604] A/N --- 🙂

MINA

My silent breathing and loud beating of my heart can only be heard in my dark room. Why? I'm not alone. Chaeyoung is in here. It's not like we did not share a room in the hospital but this is different. Number 1 we are in my own room and 2 she is in my bed. MY Bed. We are sharing a bed.

She is laying right here beside me, sleeping peacefully. How can she be so comfortable around me and sleep like a log while I'm having internal panic here? How dare she?We have already got home this afternoon. My parents have given Chaeyoung our guest room for her to stay which she did. We ate dinner then goes to our own room....

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BUT THEN she suddenly knocks on my bedroom door when I'm on my way to sleep. She's standing with her puppy eyes, pouty lips and hugging her pillow in her arms when I open the door for her.

"Mina-unnie? Can I sleep with you?" she ask so innocently. My mind wondered somewhere for a minute before kicking myself back in reality.

How can she ask those words?

"I can't sleep in my room. It's dark and I'm alone." she sadly utter with a pout.

I haven't shared my bed to anyone. None at all. I might have shared a futon with my friends before but that was when we goes camping or vacation somewhere. I had never shared a bed alone with someone. Let alone my bed. I do like space very much. Even my ex-fiance didn't have that pleasure. I'm very much conservative type leading to not experienced being intimate with anyone.

Is sharing my own bed with her is intimate enough?

"Pleasueee" she said interrupting my silence in her super cute puppy mode face. And what did I do? Of course, I lost. When did I win any with her? I take a deep breathe before answering.

"Okay but don't disturb me and be quite."

"Promisuee"

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And that's what happen. Resulting for us sleeping in the same bed right now, my bed. She slept right away the second her body touched my bed. While me? It's been an hour and my eyes are wide awake.

I turn myself in the left side where she's sleeping. Her face facing me, her eyes close, and her mouth slightly open. She looks like a baby sleeping. A smile makes it way on my lips. She is just really cute all the time.

I use my fingertip to touch her squishy cheek causing her eyebrows to met at the sudden intrusion. When I caress her cheek slowly soothingly, her face return in it's calm state. Her cheeks are soft and so smooth. I remove my hand near her face but my stares remain on her mesmerizing face.

"Being around you made me feel like I'm living again. You're making me feel these unknown emotions inside me that I don't know what is. I don't like not knowing what is it but I like how it makes me feel." I mumble to myself.

She suddenly move closer but still sleeping. Her left arms makes it way to my waist and she snuggled closer to my personal space. And what did I do? I let her. Her warm brought soothing feeling to mine. At first, my heart beats so loud and fast but when I felt her calm heart beats, my very own heart sync on hers. Our heart beats as one. A very calm beating. I slowly drifted to sleep as I listen to our heart beats and feeling her soothing warm embrace.

She's my safe place.