Can we trust the huntress?

My whole life story (11)

[important chapter]

Dean grabbed one of my hands that I was locking into my lap while I played with my rings. They all noticed how nervous I was.

„You don't need to be scared about telling us your story."

„I hope that you guys understand how hard this is for me okay. My best friend was the only one who knew what happened."

The guys nodded impatiently.

„Okay well" I swallowed „I had a great and normal life, I had my best friend, my parents, an older brother even twinsies. My two baby sisters.-"
I felt how my throat got dry.
„One night I heard a weird sound from downstairs and and.." I stopped and stared into my hands. I was still wearing the wedding rings of my parents. A single tear dropped down my face. I noticed how everyone was sitting on the ground now, listening carefully.

„I walked down the stairs and they all were dead. My whole house was full with their blood but their eyes- their eyes were wide open and stared me down. In the middle of all their bodies, was a man who Said that his name was Afana and his eyes flashed red. He told me I was special for them and for the angels and he said he could kill me, but he didn't. He left me alone in this house. I called the police and described the man but they said that this man was dead for years already. No one believed what I said. My moms sister took me to her home before she passed away a few years ago. I did some research and found a man named Ash. He told me about everything and other hunters teached me everything. After a few years into hunting I involved my best friend and we kept hunting together. Next to all of this I had to do online school and it was exhausting." I chuckled. The boys did too.

„A crossroad demon? Why would a crossroad demon kill your family?" jack asked.
Same quickly added „sorry for your loss."

„thank you And I really don't know Jack. One day, when I was 17, angels found me and did the same thing Castiel did to me the last time. I wasn't able to pee for a week. I was chained to a chair. A wooden chair. They said that I have to follow them into heaven or something before demons could get me. I forgot what they've said actually. Well y/b/f/n safed me an I smashed the chair and my body onto the ground what caused the chair to break and we managed to escape"

„I never heard about you." Cas spotted.

„Well, you do know, I guess. Uhh oh and I almost forgot we used to be three. Me, my best friend and max. We met him on a hunt and we sticked together after that." my heart shattered into thousand pieces and I started to cry uncontrollably but still silent.
„I'm so sorry how I acted before and how I lied to you and almost got you arrested and and that's not how I am I don't-"
Jack pulled me into a hug while sam pattered my leg. „I really don't know why I am getting so emotional right now" I laughed a little while wiping away my tears.

„Y/n it's alright. We forgive you. What happened to max?" dean asked.

„Well one day he got shot and nothing happened to him. He turned to us and his eyes flashed black. He just smiled and said that he finally can stop acting nice. I knocked him out and exorcised him. That was the last one I trusted anyone again."

„Explains a lot" Jack said.

„Oh y/n we didn't know." Castiel hinted with his face looking so sad, it made me melt because of his cuteness.

„my past wasn't the best, I know, but I've learned how it is to be alone and I was okay with it. Well until I met you guys." I can't believe I've just said that out loud.

The guys smiled and pulled me into a group hug. Didn't expect that. We all went silent but compfortably stared at each other before we could see our breath again. I got goosebumps and so did Sam and Dean. A young and familiar voice came from behind me. There he/she was again.