Sidnaaz Bebasi

Chapter 2

Sana was shocked to see the flat as from entrance there were so many pics of her but she didn't recognize any one of them she was sure that she is the one in the pic because she can feel a sense of belonging to all the pics she feels like that the sana in those pics is real she can relate herself to those pics but she don't remember a single memory she is relating herself to those pics but she didn't have a single memory of that it made her feel sick how can this be possible people say when you see a glimpse of past you start to remember your past sometime in flashes but you do face some reaction out of it but she is getting none and the person standing in front of her was looking with all the love in his eyes only for her and she feel guilty about that as the hope his eyes were holding will be crashed when she will tell him that she can't remember any of it .

Sid-  bab.......i mean sana baitho jyada socho mat mai tumhe sab kuch batunga par abhi stress mat lo he gesture her to hold his hand but sana was reluctant to do so sid can feel that disappointingly he put his hand down sana felt his disappointment when she didn't put her hand in his so she held his and put his small palm in his big ones .

He so missed her touch holding her hand after so long which hand he used to hold all the time from her birth now he is holding that after months and it felt like ages passes by when he last hold her hand it was getting difficult for him not to hug her he can't kiss her he can't do all the things he used to do but he need to be patient with her her health was his utmost priority he want her to stay healthy and safe and if for that he had to stay away from her he is ready for that his life depends on her .

He could feel she is hesitant to put her hand in his but after looking at his dejected face  she couldn't hold herself back and put her hand in his .

Sid slowly removed his hand from hers - ye haath jab mai haq se lunga jab tum puri tarahse sure ho jaogi ki humara rishta kya hai kaisa hai tumhare mann mein jitne sawal hai un sab ka jawab jab mil jaayega tumhe abhi tum sirf mere liye kar rahi ho kyuki mujhe bura laga jab tum apna haath mere haath mein rakhne se hichkichai par usse jyada bura mujhe tab lagega jab tum apne aap ko jabardasti se adjust karna chahogi bohot waqt hai sana mujhe koi jaldi nahi hai ki tum aaj hi mujhe accept kar lo jab tak tum sattisfied na ho jao ya agar tum chaho jab tak tumhari yaad dasht wapas na aa jaye tab tak bhi mai tumhara wait karunga chahe puri life wait karna ho mai ready hoon par tum kabhi apne aap ko kisi cheez ke liye force mat karna mai sab jhel sakta hoon tumhara mujhse door rehna tumhara mujhe na pehachhanna par agar tu apne aak ko mere liye iss rishte mein ya kisi bhi cheez mein force karogi to mai wo bardasht nahi kar paunga .

Tum kya ho mere liye mai bayaan nahi kar sakta meri puri life tum se shuru aur tum par khatam hoti hai tumhari aakhon  mein ek aasu nahi dekh sakta mai aur agar meri wajah se tum apna aap ko force karogi to jeete ji mar jaunga mai .

Sana was shocked how could he read her it;s like she is open book to him who knows every single thing about her .

Sid- jaanta hoon soch rahi ho itna kaise jaanta hoon tumhare baare mein ki bta sakta hoon mki tumhare mann mein kya chal raha hai meri life kai aim hi tum ho shuru se tum mere liye meri life ka ek part nahi ho sirf puri ki puri life hi ho .

Sana-  maa.....wo mai....matlab...mujhe ....

Sid- ye sab jo ho raha hai kuch samjh nahi aa raha hai kya sach hai kya jhoot kuch nhi pta yehi na .

Sana- haa  abhi tak jo 6 mahine  maine jeeye hai wo sab sach hai jhoot pata nahi haa mujhe pta hai maa preeti di adi jiju sab bohot pyaar karte hai mujhjse par mujhe humesha ye lagta hai wo meri health ki wajah se kuch chupa rahe hai mai samjh nahi paa rahi hoon ki jo maine inn 6 mahino mein jiya hai wo sach hai ya kuch aue hai meri life ki kahani mai ab aise nahi reh sakti dum ghuta hai mera jab bhi tumhe dekhti hoon apne liye pyaar ke alawa kuch nahi dikhta hai par mai khud ko bohot bebas mehsoos karti hoon jab unhi aankhon mein wo  mere tumhe na pehchanne ka dard hota hai .