Sidnaaz Bebasi

Chapter 3

Sid -pyaar bohot karte hai hum ek dusre se bohot kuch dekha hai par kabhi ek dusre ka saath nahi choda pta hai jab tum choti thi 5 saal ki tab tumhare nana nani aaye the tumhe lene ke liye unhone bola tum unki beti ki aakhiri nishaani ho wo maa se baat kar rahe the maine sun lia tha mai tumhe le kar ek jagah chup gaya tha wo log maa se lad rahe the bol rahe the ki wo tumhare  legal  guardian hai par mummy ko shayd pta tha ki kuch aisa ho sakta hai to wo apni death se pehle hi maa ko tumhara legal guardian bana gai thi uss din bohot kuch hua wo tumhe pure ghar mein dhund rahe the maa ne police ko bulaya wo tab gaye par mujhe darr tha ki wo dubara na aa jaye to mai tumhe le kar wahi chupa raha pura din maa humein dhund rahi thi bohot fikar ho rahi thi unhe humari phir di ne humein dekh lia mai humare ourane ghar ke side mein garage tha waha le gaya tha di mujhe aur tumhe ghar le kar aai maine maa aur papa se zidd ki ,ki ab hum uss ghar mein nahi rahenge kyuki wo logo ko humara ghar pata tha to pehel to maa nahi maani par meri zidd aur tumhari safety ke liye wo ready ho gai papa ne  2 week  ke ander naya ghar dhunda aur hum shift ho gaye .

Bohot protective aur possessive hoon tumhe le kar tumhe apne aap se jyada der tak dor  nahi rakh sakta pta hai tum 7th class mein thi tumhari trip jaa rahi thi chandigarh tumhe bhi jana tha maine mana kar dia par maa ne tumh phir bhi bhej dia mai bohot pareshaan ho gaya tha ki tumne kuch khaya hoga ya nahi kon tumhari dekhbaal kar raha hoga aur bhi bohot kuch chal raha tha mere ander mai ghar mein kisi ko bina btaye chandigarh aa gaya bohot mushkil se tumhe dhunda teacher ne daanta bhi par mujhe jo sukoon tumhe dekh kar mila wo mai bayaan nahi kar sakta tum mere liye saans ki tarah jaroori ho mai sab kuch bardasht kar sajta hoon par tumhe takleef mein nahi dekh sakta .

Sana- kya aap jitna pyaar mujhse kate ho mai bhi utna hi pyaar karti thi.

Sid- thi nahi ho aaj bhi kahin na kahin wo feeling hai tumhare ander isiliye to mai tumhe waha se seedha apne flat mein le aaya aur tum aa bhi gai maine jo bhi tumhe abhi tak bataya hai tumne yakeen kar liya bina koi sawaal kiye tumhe ab bhi lagta hai ki tum mujhse ab pyaar nahi karti tumhare dimaag ko mai yaad nahi hoon par tumhare dil mein sirf mai hoon mai nahi jaanta ki tumhe kabhi humari saari yaadien yaad aayegi ya nahi par mujhe itna pta hai ki tum sahi salamat ho meri aakhon ke saamne ho isse jyada kuch nahi chaiye mujhe mai puri zindagi wait kar sakta hoon tumhare liye par tumhe khud se door nahi kar sakta .

Sana - agar meri memory sach mein kabhi wapas na aai to aap reh loge aise hi .

Sid- jhoot nahi bolunga haa bohot mushkil hoga kyuki boot yaadien hai humari puri zindagi tumhare alawa kuch socha nahi kuch kia nahi  aur ab achanak aisa lagta hai ki kya karu pta hai jab bhi mai weak pda hoon jab sirf tum thi jo mujhe sambhal sakti hai papa ke jaane ke baad maine apne aap ko sab se door kar lia tha kisi ko apne paas nahi aane deta tha tere alawa uss waqt tu thi jo mere saath thi jisne mujhe samjha mujhe aisa feel nahi hone dia ki mai akela hoon waise to maa aur di bhi the par un dono par ek dum se bohot zimmedari aa gai thi tune mujhe sahara dia humesha mere saath rehti thi mujhe hasane ki koshish karti thi tu khud bohot choti thi shayad tujhe samjh bhi nahi thi ki ye sab kya ho gaya ek dum se par phir bhi tune mera saath nahi choda aur sirf mujhe hi nahi maa ko di ko bhi smbhala tu nahi hoti to pta nahi hum uss sab se kaise bahar aa pate .

Sana- kya humari shaadi ghar walo ki marzi se hui thi matlab maa aur di ko koi objection nahi tha .

Sid- objection wo to iss baat se hi khush thi ki ab tu life time humare saath rahegi aur waise bhi unhe bachpan se pta tha ki hum dono ek dusre se kitna pyaar karte hai .

Sana- maa di aapka to samjh aata hai par jiju wo bhi mujhse itne attached kaise hai matlab wo bhi mujhe apne bachhe ke jaisa rakhte hai .

Sid- kyuki wo sabse pehle hum mein se tumhe mile the aur tumne hi di aur jiju ke beech cupid ka kaam kia tha .