INTERNAL CRIES - COMPLETED

Kabanata 01

Kabanata 01
Convince

Tears streamed down my cheeks as I watched two people, standing just a few feet away—Kheeno, the man I loved deeply, and his girlfriend, Dalia, sharing a moment of pure happiness.

Kheeno knelt before her with a ring, and seeing Dalia's face light up with joy pierced my heart. Each nod she gave him felt like a knife twisting inside me.

I couldn't bring myself to look away; I needed to witness every detail, even though it hurt more than anything I had ever felt.

Their smiles, full of love and promise, seemed to mock my own pain. It was as if the world around us had frozen, leaving me alone with the ache of unfulfilled love.

Every gesture, every word exchanged between them, intensified my anguish. I stood there, stunned and paralyzed, as they shared a moment that belonged to them alone but shattered my hopes into irreparable pieces.

As they walked away, hand in hand, my tears continued to flow unabated. It felt like the end of a dream I had cherished for so long. The realization that I had lost him forever washed over me, leaving me hollow and broken.

I couldn't believe it! I've loved Kheeno for as long as I can remember, but now he's getting ready to marry someone else, not me. It's like my heart is breaking into pieces, each beat hurting with the pain of my dreams being crushed and my love going unanswered.

Seeing him getting ready to spend his life with someone else shattered all the hope I've been holding onto for so long. Every time I imagined a future with him, it now feels like a cruel dream slipping away from me. Knowing I'm losing him forever makes me feel empty and devastated.

Standing there, I couldn't understand what was happening. The weight of my love for him felt too heavy to bear. Watching him move on with someone who isn't me reminds me painfully of my own shortcomings. It's tough to accept that despite how much I care, he's chosen someone else to be with.

"Dad, I want to marry him!" I pleaded with my father, tears streaming down my cheeks.

I felt my heart racing as I waited for his response, hoping he would understand how much this meant to me. But instead of support, his face hardened with disapproval. His silence spoke volumes, crushing my hopes with every passing second.

I struggled to hold back more tears, feeling the weight of his disapproval like a heavy burden on my chest. All I wanted was his blessing, but now I feared I had disappointed him beyond repair.

“Pero engaged na ‘yong tao, anak,” my father problematically said. “Kheeno loves his girlfriend, McKenna,” he added, kaya mas lalo akong napaiyak.

I saw how problematic my father is now… but I really want to marry Kheeno. I can’t bear to see him marry someone else. I can’t; it will break me into pieces.

Tinanggap ko ang mga naririnig ko na maraming babaeng nauugnay sa kanya dati pa man. Tanggap kong nagka-girlfriend siya kasi hindi ko naman sila masisisi kung mahuhumaling sila kay Kheeno dahil sa kagwapohang taglay nito. He’s academically excellent. He has lots of hobbies. He’s friendly and he’s from a powerful family here in Bukidnon. But knowing that he’s going to marry one of them makes me go crazy. I am fucking head over heels to him. I have been in love with him since I was in my teen years, kaya hindi ko matanggap na ikakasal siya sa iba. Hindi ko matanggap na kahit ngayon na nasa tamang edad na ako, he still sees me as the kid he knew when he left to study in Manila.

“Please, Dad,” I pleaded again. My father shook his head, kaya mas lalo akong naiyak. Ilang minuto akong nakaupo roon at umiyak bago bumuntonghininga si Daddy.