"Here it is. Try it" Nikhil brings spoonful of rice to her. Jennifer distractedly smiles looking up as the man takes a seat next to her. She opens her mouth taking in the offered food and hums as the rice tastes really good. She gives him a thumbs up watching as a very satisfied grin grows on his lips.
"It's really yum Nikhil. Where did you learn to cook like this?"she asks actually impressed and a little shocked, the time she has spent with him he never once stepped foot in the kitchen and now to pull of an actual dinner dish. The wheels in her brain started rolling as he talked, tuning his voice out completely as she tried to figure if she forgot some important thing, like their anniversary or something. If that is the case not only will she be a cheater but a really awful person.
She only smiles awkwardly as she asks, might as well she thinks "Am I forgetting something? Is today special?"
Nikhil only laughs shaking his head "No, it is a normal day. I just had some free time on my hand and thought why not cook something. And I am hoping it will be a fantastic dinner date"
Jennifer only smiles at him nodding and then suggests him to get some plates and for him to dig in as well. They eat in silence, exchanging few words every now and then and it is good she thinks. The atmosphere is relaxed and Nikhil is someone you can talk easily with, share your opinions without being judged or discarded. The breeze from the open window is soothing and even her dog is enjoying his meal beside them.
It is always easy with him, it is not intense, taking your breathe away and losing your mind like it is with Harshad. Harshad, who drives her crazy, spins her out of control, makes her do things , say things that she never would otherwise. Harshad who made her spill out her heart, who she confessed to not hours ago, who reciprocated his feelings, whose voice, words are echoing in her brain since she sat in her car. Harshad who is still on her mind while she is with other man. And Jennifer's heart is hurting, she is physically hurting and feels mentally exhausted. But she smiles, she nods and she speaks , trying to not show the struggle, the exhaustion, for the sake of her boyfriend.
She thought when she will fall in love again, if she ever finds it she will be finally happy. Happiness that was snatched from her years ago. But tonight as she chews on her food, she thinks she would be this hurt after falling in love, so in pain after finding out that the person she loves feels the same desire for her. It is beautiful, it supposed to be beautiful, blood rushing, heart throbbing feeling in the world. But instead it has turned out to be scariest, exhaustive and heartbreaking event of all the time.
As they move forward into the night, Nikhil talking about something she doesn't bother to even understand or pay attention to, her mind clouded with guilt and fear. She takes in Nikhil, her eyes grazing over his features as they lay in bed and she choosed Nikhil, she supposed to be happy with him. He is her safest choice, he is good for her and although he is mostly away he makes time for her, treats her right and he is a wonderful man. And she needs to make a decision.
The reality of the thought dawns upon her.
Her smile dropping slightly as she mumbles something before she is sitting up in the bed, unable to hear him anymore.
"I think, my head, its paining"
"What happened dear? Suddenly.."
"I don't know, I just there was a mild pain since the morning and it went away for few hours but now I , it hit me" she says massaging her forehead because her head really hurts from juggling her thoughts and processing Nikhil's voice. The exhaustion from the recent events, her life coming onto her.
"Where did you keep your balm? I will get it for you."Nikhil stands up ready for her to point in the direction or tell him and when she mumbles pointing at the drawers near the television he moves. He quickly comes back with the tiny box and shuffles the sheets making her lay down. He then applies the gel and massages her forehead making her sigh softly. He kisses her head understanding when Jennifer mumbles out a weak sorry, her eyes feeling heavy.
The only thought in her mind is that she needs to make a decision.
Soon .
***
The shortness of this chapter is triggering me *sigh
The lockdown has made my writing self lazy.
This story is coming to an end soon. And a new story is on it's way !
Stay safe. Stay at home.
Love
Ri x
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