𝒔𝒑𝒂𝒓𝒌𝒔 || 𝒋𝒋 𝒎𝒂𝒚𝒃𝒂𝒏𝒌 [discontinued]

★ 14 - puzzle pieces

"it's you, it's always you
if I'm ever gonna fall in love i know it's gon' be you
it's you, it's always you
met a lot of people, but nobody feels like you."

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JJ topples backwards onto the sand from the immense amount of force pushed into him. The ocean waves violently crash into the rock behind him— water splattering onto his back. Izzy's breath slows down, becoming more deeper than shallow, her lips slightly parted. Both shocked and stunned, JJ shakes it off and immediately stands up. 

"Shit— sorry. Sorry." He starts and looks down towards the sand.

Standing up with him, Izzy takes in a deep breath and places her fingers on her lips, "Did you just... what was that about?"

Threading his fingers into his hair he hurriedly answers, "Look,  I don't know. I have no clue, sorry sorry. I just screwed this up—"

"JJ, I can't do this right now."

The boy releases his grip on his hair and lets the words thoroughly decipher in his brain. Flicking the inside of his cheek, he then clenches his jaw, "Did you... did you not feel anything?"

It was clear that there was pain in his voice as he gazed towards the girl. 

"I-I can't even think about that. This is way too much J."

He turns and walks up close to her, close enough to be able to feel her steady breathing. 

"So you're telling me that you felt nothing? Absolutely nothing?" He squints his eyes and stares her down. His blue eyes look like a soft gray from the moonlight reflecting behind them. 

Izzy bites her lip and looks away from him. She did feel something. She really did. Every puzzle piece seemed to fit in that very moment. But it also just added on to her confusion. It made things so much harder to comprehend because she felt like they did have something.

JJ places his hand below her chin, lifting her face up to him, "Look me dead in the eyes and tell me you felt nothing."

An uncomfortable silence feels the air of the atmosphere around them. Izzy stands there, mouth open, unable to say anything. She didn't want to hurt him. She wanted to be enough for him and she wanted to be capable of loving a person before she committed to anything. However, she felt that she lacked in all of these categories.

"J—"

"If you didn't— stop playing fucking games with me Isabella." JJ steps away from her. Once again, silence fills the air. Izzy stands there in silence, her heart filling up with despair. He scans her up and down before scoffing, "You know, you're the only thing that's keeping me sane right now, but do you even care about me?"

"Yes, JJ, yes, of course I care—"

"No, forget it. Whatever. I don't give a single fuck." He interrupts and raises his hand in front of him. He knew that was a lie.