Goodness, I don't think I ever expected to be writing something like this. If you're reading this, you may be aware that I unpublished all of my other works both fanfiction and original. I was convinced that I would never do such a thing yet here we are almost exactly four years later. (It's only been four years?! WHAT?!)
When I was editing my fanfic to fix some plot holes, dig deeper into the characters, and align it better with the other books planned for the series, I hit a wall I couldn't overcome. It's as if the ground I was walking on sloped before hitting the wall. Because I was sunken in, I could never jump the wall and it was far too long to try to walk around. Every tool I used to try to get over the wall always failed.
"How is this possible?" I questioned. "I always get over these types of things eventually!"
It went on forever and ever. I would be bounding with ideas and possibilities and as soon as I sat down to write every bit of writing energy or ideas were zapped from me. One day, in a great rage, I threw everything down and proclaimed, "Maybe I should just quit it altogether!"
For the first time in many months- possibly even a year- I felt peace flood me concerning writing. I was heartbroken as I considered the possibility. I poured over my drafts and I felt the need to let go. I made an announcement and temporarily unpublished it.
That seems so long ago but realistically it was only last year. Every time I visit Wattpad I feel torn. I know I need to truly let go and press on ahead. I have written since unpublishing my fanfic but mostly nonfiction. Anything fiction dries up quickly. I'm at a loss of what to do. I want to write but I'm still being held back. Which brings me to the purpose of this entry.
I have decided to log out of Wattpad permanently. As of right now, I'm not deleting my account(s) lest I visit in the days to come. However, I know I can't walk forward if one foot is in Wattpad and one foot is pressing into the unknown. Wattpad has always been a comfort for me. I met people who would become really great friends to me. I have learned so much and I will always, always, ALWAYS be grateful and cherish the time I had on Wattpad.
It had been a grand adventure. Now I must press on in the race that lies ahead of me. Be strong and courageous, my friends, and press on. Run the good race. I love y'all. <3
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One of Nine Lives
Non-FictionCats are said to be entitled to nine lives, I'm merely sharing what is going on in mine. (aka purplecatgirl24... see what I did there?) I edited out the tags because I felt that was a lot of personal stuff and with the recent stalker episode, I'm be...
