Meeting Norman Reedus

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Norman's POV

It's been a week since I've seen Shay.
She won't answer my calls. She quit her job at the diner. She's never at her apartment when I go over. She sent Casey here to get her things. I haven't been able to function. I hadn't realized how dependant I had become on her.

Ming told me that he had spoke to her yesterday and she's okay. So that helped a little I suppose. She was communicating with everyone but Lizzy and I.

Andy was on his way over to go to lunch. I hadn't been out of the house all week and I didn't really wana go now.

A-Hey Norman I'm here man.
N-Hey man
A-You ready to go? You look like hell.
N-I feel like hell. I guess I'm ready
A-No point in asking how your doing huh?
N-I'm lost I cant believe I fucked up this bad. I've lost her man.
A-I'm sorry man. I know it hurts and it'll take some time but you'll get through this.
N-I might get through it but there's never gona be another her.

Shay's POV

"You have got to get up and leave this room girl. I'm worried about you."

"I don't want to Cas. I miss him."

"Then call him babe."

"I can't do that. He basically cheated Cas and with my friend."

"I know I'm sorry. Hey look how about we go out tonight have a girls night."

"I can't look theres something I gotta tell ya Cas."

"What is it? Whats going on?"

"I'm leaving for awhile. I'm going to North Carolina to stay with my aunt for a little bit. I'm suffocating here. Everywhere I look I see him. I can't move on or heal here I just can't."

"I'm going to miss you so much. I understand why you have to doesn't mean I have to like it."

"We'll stay in touch and you can come visit. Your still gona be my best friend no matter what.

It was good to have that talk with Cas. I was going to miss her more than she knew. I just couldn't be here right now. Not when every store I go to or restaurant or bar reminded me of him. I needed a place where I could clear my head.

C-I can't believe your leaving today
S-I know me to
C-I miss you already
S-So do I
C-Did you talk to him?
S-We're meeting for lunch on my way out of town.
C-You up for that?
S-Not really I honestly was just gona send him an email. But as mad as I am at him. He deserves more than that.
C-Yeah.

Casey and I had went out last night with everyone kind of a last hooray. I called Andy,Steven,Lauren and Dani to say goodbye.

Jeff and I have been talking but I've made it very clear its just as friends. I hung out and had dinner with my family the night before. Norman was the only one left to say goodbye to.

I hadn't seen him in almost a month. He continued to call leaving voicemails. We had so many flowers in the apartment we could have opened a shop.

Pulling into the diner we were meeting at my stomach was in knots this is one goodbye I'm not looking forward to.

I saw Norman sitting on his bike waiting for me. As soon as I saw him I wanted to burst out crying and run into his arms.

N-Hey baby
S-Hey Norm
N-How are you?
S-I'm okay you?
N-Surviving I guess. Can I hug you?

Being in his arms felt like home. I missed him so much. I had to break away I could feel the tears starting.

N-Shall we go eat?
S-Sure
N-So your car looks pretty full. Are you moving?
S-I am
N-Where to?
S-I'm going to North Carolina.
N-Why so far away? I'll never see you.
S-Because I have to Norman. It hurts to much being here right now.
N-I never meant to hurt you. I'll never forgive myself for losing the best thing that ever happened to me.

I couldnt hold it any longer the tears spilled down my face.

S-Norman I have to go.
N-I'm begging here please don't leave.
S-I have to Norman. I'm broken and I can't get fixed here.
N-So that's it your never going to forgive me?
S-I forgive you Norm but I can't be with you. I can't trust you and that's everything.
N-I'm so sorry Shay. I wish so bad I could take it back.
S-I know me to....I need to go now take care of yourself ok?

He was crying just as hard as I was at this point. He pulled me against his chest.

N-I love you Shay. Im gona be here I'll be waiting until you can love me again.

I kissed his lips quickly and gently. Goodbye Norman. I got in the car and drove away. Watching him disappear the further I went. When he was finally out of my site. I broke down pulling off the road. This was the hardest thing I ever had to do and it was killing me. I cried until I had nothing left. Then i pulled back onto the road. Heading for an unknown tommrow.

Norman's POV

Watching her drive away from me was soul crushing. I missed her with every ounce of my being. I ruined the purest love I had ever known. I was never going to be the same after this.