The artist - lismin

Chapter 45 preview

A/N - mwah 💋 🌸

He left a note behind. Lisa dropped to her knees.

Hey.

It's me.

Lisa you did wonderful. I'm so proud of you for how much you have accomplished. I couldn't take my eyes off of you. During the event, I felt that if I had looked away even for the slightest second, you would disappear from my sight. I wasn't sure how to tell you, but I was offered an opportunity to work as a coach for Paris goebel's royal dance crew. It was a once in a lifetime opportunity I couldn't miss. I know I'm being very selfish, and I'm very sorry.

But as humans, we all have to be selfish at times right? Is it wrong to be selfish? If I want to pursue a career I love more than I love myself?

This doesn't mean I never prioritized you. Never think that.

I was conflicted in my decision Lisa. My sunshine and my perfect world I can't attain.

I didn't want to be away from you. I couldn't even bare the thought of it. But this career opportunity involves me leaving for quite some time. I don't know how long that'll be.

What I'm trying to say is....I don't think our relationship will work out. I couldn't face you and tell you this in person, and I know this is so fucking pathetic, to end our relationship with a damn note.

I know, trust me, I know.

I'm a coward.
I always will be.

But I have come to realize something. You deserve so much better. I am at fault. As cliche as this sounds, it's me, not you.

You're probably confused, but you know what? Don't overthink this. I will always cherish the relationship we had, even if it wasn't for too long.

Spending and sharing my time with you, offering the love I tried to give, was one of the best moments in my life.

Lisa, I know you liked me back in high school.

The way your eyes glanced at me, looking at me much differently than the others.

And to be fair, I liked you to. I guess I was being a stubborn asshole for not giving in, but boy do I regret my choices. You could've been my girl back then and who would've known what our future would've been if I had made the choice to ask you out during our high school times?

Where would we stand today?

Would you still been my enemy? Rival?girlfriend? My fiancé, my wife? The mother of my children?

Haha...I'm getting too far ahead aren't I?

I'll stop now.

Lisa, you have come a long way. Despite the struggles you have faced, you have definitely fought those obstacles. Remember that. The job that you lost in the past, was not the right place for you.

You deserved better, and you have fulfilled one of your many dreams.

I'm sorry again, about everything.  Take care of yourself, and I hope you will receive the most happiness in the world. The happiness you truly deserve.

I know there's someone better. Someone who's perfect for you, perfect than I'll ever be.

I'll always love you...I don't think I ever expressed every feeling I wanted.

It's tough.

Bye, my sunshine

- Hoseok

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- to be continued