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_𝐽𝒖𝒔𝒕 𝑏𝑒𝑐𝑎𝒖𝒔𝑒 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝑎𝒓𝑒 𝒔𝒕𝒓𝒖𝑔𝑔𝒍𝑖𝒏𝑔 𝑑𝒐𝑒𝒔𝒏'𝒕 𝒎𝑒𝑎𝒏 𝒚𝒐𝒖𝒓 𝑎𝒓𝑒 𝑓𝑎𝑖𝒍𝑖𝒏𝑔 💙🦋. ——————————————————————————— AUTHOR POV: "What are you doing?" Said the young lady , obviously worried about her fellow member ,her voice sounded like a whisper in the loud room,but it did grab Jimin's attention, cause as soon as he heard her he stopped in his tracks ,"why are you here?" Said he faintly "don't just answer my question with another one" you said rolling your eyes ,"why do you care?" Said he while chuckling weakly still not facing her , only his back was visible," yah just answer the damn question " but the older member just kept quiet not wanting to face her or anyone else but the female maknae didn't seem to understand that as she walked closer to him grabbing his wrist and turning him around, as soon as she met his face she gasped , his cheek were stained with tears as other ones were threatening to fall , eyes were red and sore ,only soft breaths could be heard ,the grip on his wrist loosened , he looked up to meet her concerned face , she didn't bother to ask him the usual "are you fine " cause clearly he wasn't, she quickly pulled him into her embrace tapping his back with her small hands , he also wrapped his strong arms around her waist and snuggled his head into her neck letting small sniffs "its okay to cry " were the words that made him breakdown but yoona just kept stroking his soft hair in a comforting manner drawing circles on his back as he hugged her even tighter, the young boy seemed in need of comfort and thats what yoona was doing , after some minutes the boy pulled away from the warm hug and looked down " do you wanna talk about it " asked the girl breaking the silence , but jimin just grabbed her wrist pulling her somewhere ,she silently followed him ,they ended up in the rooftop of the company "didn't know we had a rooftop " said yoona wanting to lit up the mood a lil "i came here every night to see the shining stars and enjoy the starry night it calms me down " they both were lost in the stars until Jimin decided to speak up "im not enough " said he while smiling bitterly "i was never enough, just an useless fat ugly boy thats what everyone saw me as , but they weren't wrong all the things they said applied to me in same way , they used to bully me a lot they still do but im used to it yet i want to prove them wrong i wanted to prove to everyone that im not useless by doing this its not like i don't enjoy music its my passion its my escape thats why im doing all what i can do to improve my self to be better and not to disappoint anyone but even tho i practice everyday im not getting better " he finished but didn't look at the female beside him just stared at the night sky " you know jimin not just because i want to comfort you but never did i see someone dance so powerfully before and so smoothly your moves are more than perfect you were quick to memorize the choreography and also your voice is angelic don't let them change what you think of yourself don't see yourself through their eyes they are just some insecure bitches trying to make themselves feel better but that won't make them any less insecure and don't you dare shrink yourself for people's comfort do not became small for people who refuse to grow and know that im gonna be always here to hear you out and lead you my shoulder to cry on just don't shut your own voice because of the voices of others just be yourself " even tho she was young her words were wise , she wished to do the same as she told jimin but she couldn't because she hated herself not because of others but because of herself she didn't want her older member to struggle even if she doesn't know him well she doesn't want him to get hurt like she is hurt thats why from that moment she decides to help him this is how she is maybe cold but actions speak louder then words right ? " I'll try to , thank you yoona-shi also im sorry for being rude i just" "you didn't want me to enter the group because im a girl and would ruin everything its okay jimin-ah i didn't want to , but i had to " she said smiling weakly "I'll help you trust me i really will " she said before getting up and walking away from jimin "wait where are you going " said he as she slowly turned around "i have something to do tell others to not worry I'll come late" and she walked away before he could even respond , walking down the now familiar street she sighed its only been two weeks or so , but she is already tired ,physically ? Um yeah but mentally she was exhausted from everything she wished to shine like the stars in the darkness but she felt like a ghost in a world of doll papers , silence in her soul ,cold blood rushing through her veins , thoughts filling her mind hurting her open scar ,she waited for summer in the cold winter night , waited for the light in her dark world ,she was tired of waiting ,no one seemed to notice the pain in her empty eyes , she suffered alone , faked a smile and sacrificed herself to help people while no one helped her ,no one ever cared for her ,no one loved her , but it was fine she is used to it now ,wind blowing her hair , shivers through her warm skin , with the moon light above her head she arrived to the familiar place , the place to clear her thoughts, the famous han river , she closed her eyes , enjoying the sound of the water flow, suddenly she had the urge to write, opening her bag she pulled a small not book with a pen , What is you that you dreamed of ? Who do you see in the mirror ,i gotta say go your own way Even if you live a day Do something Put your weakness away The young girl enjoyed writing meaningful lyrics , she wrote about her life , feelings , thoughts, its like she was speaking up to paper ,expressing things she couldn't express loudly , thats why she was so passionate about music , cause it heard her when no one did , after what seemed like an hour the cold girl finally decided to go back from the peaceful sight heading to her new "home" ,it wasn't that far tho so she walked slowly enjoying every step she took towards the lovely place , maybe just maybe i took the right choice , she thought before entering the dorms ," look who decided to show up " she shoot her head up as soon as she heard the cold voice , as soon as her eyes locked with yoongi he glared at her annoyingly,"umm hey " she said awkwardly "where in the damn hell were you " he yelled at her "you all seem to be found of that question " she mumbled but the older heard her clearly "cut it and answer my question " she sighed " i was out " " that doesn't answer my question " "fine i was at han river " she said frustrated " what were you doing there " "you seem to be quite curious i was just sitting their " she said rolling her eyes " don't give me that attitude young lady " he yelled " why are you yelling " said a different voice ,it was jhope rubbing his eyes , his hair messed up , "happy you woke him up " "whats wrong " said hobi with a raspy voice "nothing hoseok just go back to sleep " " if you say so " then he disappeared into the dark bedroom "now you-" " please yoongi just stop asking im tired we have practice tomorrow i wanna rest " " fine but you'll answer my wonders tomorrow " yoona just nodded and headed to the shared bedroom to find jungkook peacefully sleeping you pulled the covers tucking him in , and went to change to some oversized hoodie , you didn't mind showering since you were extremely tired , went beside the bed till someone pulled you by your wrist lending in the bed ,Jungkook then pulled the covers covering both of you , he then pulled you by your waist towards him you laid your arm protectively around him "why are you late noona " "nothing kook go back to sleep " he mumbled a quiet fine and slept right away chuckling at his cute act you closed your eyes but couldn't sleep even tho you were hella sleepy , your thoughts were wide awake, if there's something your the best at it would be overthink , and if it was a drug you would be high as hell , failing to sleep multiple times you dumped it and slowly mad your way to the small backyard of the dorms sitting on the edge of the stairs , just count to one two three and forget all bad memories take my hand and smile even if one day i won't be their for you but my words and love will never leave your side , you smiled at the thought of your beloved mom her words were wise , she was brighter than the day's light , with such a Beautiful soul always saw the positivity in negative things, she was strong but you failed to protect her , you hated yourself for that ,you snapped out of your thoughts as someone kept shaking you , looked up to find a smiley jin "can't sleep " "huh oh yeah , what about you " you said quietly " same " he breathed out " did you ever wonder what would our live be if we didn't take this path " you said gazing at Jin's perfect side profil " i don't know never thought of it , maybe living normally without worrying about simple things " you hummed " what made you chose to be an idol " he sighed before saying " i did it for my mom " he took a deep breath before continuing "her friends always seemed to brag about their sons but my mother kept quiet , i didn't archive anything, i didn't do anything for her to brag about , thats why i had a thought to become and idol and make her proud so that one day she'll be able to talk about how proud she is and about how successful I'll be " tears were already formed in his eyes but he blinked them away so easily , yes tears are a sign that someone is upset or sad or even hurt so why not easily forget everything just like how they disappear when you blink them away "what about you " said seokjin " maybe you'll know one day " said Yoona before getting up " lets go inside we don't wanna catch a cold " he just chuckled at her and headed inside after her "yoona " "hmm" "goodnight" "night oppa " then each one of them headed to his room . ——————————————————————————— Sorry if i took too long to post hope you enjoy it . 1867 words
