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Chapter 6

_𝘠𝒐𝘶 𝘯𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳 𝘬𝘯𝒐𝘸 𝘩𝒐𝘸 𝘴𝘵𝒐𝘯𝘨 𝘺𝒐𝘶 𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘶𝘯𝘵𝘪𝘭 𝘣𝘦𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘴𝘵𝘳𝒐𝘯𝘨 𝘪𝘴 𝘺𝒐𝘶𝘳 𝒐𝘯𝘭𝘺 𝒐𝘱𝘵𝘪𝒐𝘯 .
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" WHAT" shock was written all over her face , cold sweat dripping off her forehead as she stared at them , sadness and disappointment filled her once empty eyes ,"are you saying i won't be a part of the debut song ?" She managed to utter "exactly " said the old man "b-but" she breathed out "its final " he shuted her hopes down with few words that didn't seem to make sense to her , her fellow members looked at her with sympathy but there was nothing they could do about it , the young lady dashed outside not wanting to stay with them "yoona-shi "whispered jin as he headed after her only to be pushed back by Namjoon shocking his head "let her hyung she needs some time alone " jin sighed but obeyed the leader's words "pd-nim does that mean she won't debut with us " said yoongi concern visible in his voice even tho he seemed the coldest and carless person but deep down he cared about his members which included yoona, its been 2 months since she arrived but he already have a soft spot for the beautiful girl he always respected how strong and wise she was and that proved to him that respect doesn't come with the age of the person but with their acts ,pd nim sighed before speaking "we still don't know yoongi " "what do you mean by that , she already signed a contract and she is a member of bts too " this time jimin was the one speaking sure he didn't like her at first but he regretted everything he did after getting to know her and ofc after that night "she may join another group or go to jyp as he already asked me if she could join his company " said pd-nim calmly "are you serious you can't let that happen weren't you the one saying she is the missing puzzle ,she complete us " pd-nim just stayed silent he did say those words and he was the one to force them in accepting her and when they did he broke them apart well not yet but thats what he is trying to do "lets talk about this later " he said after long minutes of silence , yoongi was the first one to leave while slamming the door harshly then the others followed after him bowing to the elder, mean while yoona was at her usual place han river it was the place where she decided she will accept bighit's offer and now she is here when they excluded her ,funny isn't it about two months ago they were the ones begging her to join the company but now the table turned , surprisingly she wasn't mad instead she felt sad and betrayed? , he promised her to help her reach her goal make her dreams come truth but now he is backing off did he also think of her as an useless girl or did he not have faith in her ,how about the others were they finally happy that their wish come true that she is gonna leave or were they guilty and pitied her , either ways it wasn't their fault in fact she assumed it was hers why because she never thought of her self as something more than a talentless useless girl she always took the blame and in this case she also took it ,having enough of those pointless wonders , she left the place  heading to wherever her feet took her , while walking she didn't pay attention to anything for the first time her mind was blank , head down she bumped into a hard chest "im sorry" "yoona-shi?" "Oh its you again .....jaebum" she said weakly not in the mood to talk to anyone or do anything just sleep and overthink shit that was her plan "how are you I've not seen you in a while now " he said smiling at her ,at least his smile is beautiful , she thought "yeah ,im fine " the lie slipped from her mouth so easily without her realizing, im not fine , im struggling, my scar is taking way more time to heal ,i can't do this anymore im tired depression is living in my body that fights to survive with a broken heart and a mind that tries to die was what she wanted to say ,"lets take a walk should we ?" She wanted to refuse but then she really needed company at the moment, nodding she followed by his side  "where are we going " asked the female maknae "wait and you'll see" after a 10 minutes walk they arrived to a beautiful lake ,since it was dark the only think she saw was the lake ,the stars reflected on it , as the wind blow through the trees , but they stood still , not flying with the cold wind ,why couldn't she do the same thing , she could've cared less about everything, and manage to not break apart "its beautiful isn't it" "hmm ,oh yeah it is " she breathed out "whats wrong " he looked at her trying to read her eyes , but they seemed mysterious , impossible to read , "nothing why" she stared back at him "something tells me otherwise " "what something" "i just have that feeling looking at you " she chukled bitterly,eyes willing up with tears but she didn't let them escape , didn't wanna show her pain , in her mind tears are a sign of weakness and she didn't wanna be weak , she forced her self to be strong and mature, but at the same time she wanted to let it all out , she needed to confess everything to someone,she wanted to share the thoughts that ate her alive ,"well you are right im not fine i lied im dying inside " she said locking eyes with him , his eyes softened at the confess of the young girl "wanna share it with me yoona-shi " she hesitated at first but nodded anyway "music was and still something i enjoyed my whole life its like a healing an escape ,when im sad happy mad or even angry i listen to music, its like the answer to everything its like a safe kind of high , its my addiction and i wanted music to be with me forever thats why i decided to became an idol who write and preform beautiful notes , at first without auditioning to any company i got a lot of offers but i chose the smallest and least popular one why you may ask cause i wanted to build my own name without the help of anyone just me myself and i but that was months ago when i first joined the 7 other members as the last and official one my goal changed , i wanted to make something beautiful but this time with them all together " she paused for some minutes before continuing "i really worked hard since day one , but now all my hope crashed down in one minute " she finally looked at him , tears building in her brownish eyes , her lips shaking,as she grabbed tightly on the hem of her hoodie trying not to breakdown in front of him "t-they don't need me a-anymore ,i-i waited for so long a-and worked so hard for this y-yet im not gonna debut" she finally said it , a weight lifted off her shoulder , it felt good to open up , she wished to do it more often ,but knowing how she is , it was hard for her to share things , she grow up like that , she grow up like a close mysterious book,jaebum moved close to the girl wrapped his strong arms around her as his hand caressed her hair ,"its okay let it all out " he whispered softly but she only huged him tighter "crying is not a sign of weakness but a sign that you've been strong for a long time its okay to cry " as the words slipped off his tongue the young girl let all the tears she've been holding for so long , "im not o-okay a-at all " she said her voice cracking as she spoke , the boy only whispered comforting words in hope to calm her down , but the girl just kept crying her eyes out , let all the pain she held for so long out ,in some way she didn't feel fragile but powerful? , and as if the sky heard her painful cries , it cried with her that night.
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"Hyung where is she its 11:00 pm and she's still not here" "she'll be back soon hobi no need to worry" said jin reassuring the younger ,"jin hyung is right you know how is she" agreed yoongi ,hobi sighed but agreed anyway,minutes later the female maknae entered soaked by the rain , she was shivering with the thin clothes she wore "yah jungkook-ah give her a towel or something" said jin clearly worried for yoona "nae hyung" ,"we were worried for you yoona-yah" "no need to im fine as you can see jimin oppa" she smiled weakly at him but then she felt dizzy as if the world was turning around her , she "tried" to walk but tripped on her own feet lucky for her Taehyung caught her on time "yoona are alright " said the young boy worriedly "nae oppa just a lil dizzy" she responded holding tae's arm for support , right then jk came back with a blue towel wrapping it around the older as she continued trembling, she felt ice cold "hold up lemme check your temperature" removing her bangs from her face he put his hand on her forehead,her temperature was high which scared jin he looked over at her as her face looked pale her eyes showed no emotion even tho she was smiling at him to ease the tension, but he patted her hair and pointed to the room signaling over to the boys to take her and they seem to get his point as the boxy smily boy dragged her with the help of the other maknae ,her body was already weak and energy was leaked so she just went with what they did ,the two placed her on bed "i wanna change first" stopping them in their tracks with her words they nodded and went out but before the bunny looking boy gave her his hoodie "wear it noona its comfortable" after she nodded her head he walked out ,meanwhile the girl was feeling mixed motions this felt like a deja vu to her, all of this ,but she couldn't conclude when or where , her heart clutched as her stomach tightened and twitched ,cold sweat glistened in her features, her eyes showed pain ,everything ached it sagged ,but she managed to put the black oversized hoodie on ,she massage her temples in hope of reducing the pain ,a nock was her in the silent room she whispered a quiet "come in " and focused her stare on the door next to the bed " yonna-shi i made same porridge for you it'll help with you fever " worriedly looking over the girl he approached her putting the food on the nightstand "make sure to eat it while its warm" were the last words he said before exiting the room.
"Yah stop messing my hair" said young yoona while pouting at the boy next to her "you look cute tho" smiling at the girl ,they were on a garden , full of flowers , pretty ones , the sky was kissed with a pinkish color , warm breeze hit their faces ,"hea, do you know what white flowers stand for" the girl shoke her head as she was cluless ,the boy giggled before speaking "they say that white flowers grow in quietness , it symbolizes the innocemment youthfulness,it means  I'll stay loyal and I'll love you eternally" finishing his words , he got up and picked a beautiful newly blooming angelic flower , going back to his previous seat he turned around facing hea, "hea i want you to promise me something " "what is it " "promise me to always be gentle with people every heart hides wounds that never bleed, but don't sacrifice yourself for someone's happiness,be always the first option to yourself, don't trust people easily and never give up on anybody not even yourself miracles always happen,and I'll promise you to always be by your side if not physically then I'll be always in your heart " he said smiling at her , she looked at him confused "why are you making me promise you this you are not leaving right? " he shoke his head "its just that i found it the right time to make promises " "okay then I'll promise you that " he nodded and pulled up a box opening it to reveal a beautiful necklace with a flower with it ,a white one to be specific "okay promise me one last thing would you ? " she nodded at him again "wear this for ever okay ? " "omg its so pretty I'll never stop wearing it " she hugged him then tightly,but he hugged her even tighter as if its the last time he'll hug her well maybe it is or not who knows,he whispered in her ear "i love you my hea" " i love you more my haneul"
Panting she woke up ,tears stained on her cheeks,𝗂 𝗍𝗁𝗈𝗎𝗀𝗁𝗍 𝗍𝗁𝗈𝗌𝖾 𝖽𝗋𝖾𝖺𝗆𝗌 𝗌𝗍𝗈𝗉𝗉𝖾𝖽 ,she mumbled to her self ,she wipped the tears left and gazed at the close window, the sun lights entering from it she knew it was morning, at least she slept for long , she then got up walking out to the kitchen "yoona-shi how do you feel" looking around she noticed jhope smiling at her "oh i feel better" she smiled back at him as he nodded "wanna go with me to the grocery shop" "yeah sure I'll just dress quickly then we'll go" "I'll be waiting outside" then she left to the bathroom,washed her face and brushed her teeth,she dressed up in this

(Her outfit if you don't like it feel free to imagine something else )
She headed out only to be meet by namjoon "good morning" his voice was raspy and hair messed up "morning oppa" "where are you going" "oh just to the grocery shop with hobi" "aren't you sick yoona" "no i feel better" she reassured him "if you say so" then the leader left to get ready probably she took the chance and want out "took you long enough huh" said hobi pouting cutely which resulted to a chuckling yoona ,they made their way the the shop talking about which one is good Pepsi or coca ? Interesting talk right " oppa im telling you that both are good but whats the best?" She looked at him and they both yelled "SPRIT" "thats my girl" he smiled proudly "finally someone with a good taste" "ikr oppa" " yeah let's hurry before jin wakes up"
MINUTES LATER (srry im lazy haha):
The two walked out with some stuff and ofc sprit and banna milk "lets sit over there a lil bit im exhausted" the girl nodded as they sat at a near bench "oppa how old were you when tou started dancing?" "Well i joined an underground dance crew and i learned dancing at 6 i really enjoyed dance as it helps me release stress ,what about you i can see how of a good dancer you are" the girl sighed before saying "lets say a friend taught me how to dance" "really who is he?" Yoona smiled at him sadly "his name is haneul"
To be continued...
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Hey guys hope you enjoy this chapter comment if you like it , and to not confuse you guys hea is a name.
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