𝐛𝐥𝐚𝐜𝐤 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐰𝐡𝐢𝐭𝐞- 𝐣𝐣 𝐦𝐚𝐲𝐛𝐚𝐧𝐤

12.

🦋☀ 🌊 - 12

    it wasn't long until sarah went to find wheezie and olivia texts kiara to meet up. the party was boring and sarah was too tired to go back down with the others.

olivia waited on the front lawn with sarah and wheezie to keep her company. olivia insisted on staying with her, but she shook her head in disagreement saying she was ending the party soon and heading to bed.

shortly after, the van pulls up in front of the house. it looked like total shit compared to the cameron's house, but no one bothered to pay attention.

"i'll see you around, okay? be careful and let me know how things go." olivia hugs sarah, not caring about what the pogues think.

"i will." sarah smiles, watching her friend hop in the back of the van.

john b takes off without another word. the mood was shifted once olivia got into the van, and in all honesty she wished she just walked home.

jj sits across from olivia. he didn't say anything nor did he care to look at her. the two were fighting and neither of them cared to fix it right then and there.

pope, kiara, and john b fill the girl in on what they did and what they found out. it seemed pretty cool in the moment. wishing olivia went with them instead, she smiles and nods her head along.

john b pulls up to the wreck and parks the van. kiara made olivia come with instead of dropping her off like olivia wanted. it might have been easier, but kiara wanted olivia there with her.

"stealing drones makes you hungry." kiara gets out of the van, helping olivia out as well.

when they walk in, kiara stops by her dad to talk to them, hugging him tightly and asking him for free food for the group. olivia waves to mr. carrera, following the guys to the back.

everyone stays silent the whole time. olivia didn't even stand by jj like she normally would. after everything that went on at the party, she wanted him to hug her and tell her she would be okay. she wanted nothing to do with rafe and midsummers after him almost forcing her to do something she didn't want to.

kiara tells everyone to sit down and the food gets served moments later. everyone was starving, except for olivia. her appetite was completely gone, instead it was replaced with the feeling of sickness.

jj notices her change of mood, almost wanting to ask her what's wrong. it didn't matter though cause they were fighting and olivia didn't seem like she wanted anything to do with him.

music started to play and the friends laugh and start a mini food fight that kiara ends quickly so she didn't have to clean it up. she stands up and waves john b over to her, dancing to the music.

olivia watches her friends have fun, but all she wanted to do was cry. she didn't know why exactly since nothing actually happened to her, except for the fact rafe is going to be her date to midsummers when all he is is a drug addict and a psychopath.

the girl excuses herself from the table. none of her friends didn't notice. everyone but jj, actually. he watches her as she walks out and sits down by the small dock in the back of the wreck.

he decides to stand up and follow the girl. he didn't care if she went off on him or slapped him or called him an idiot, he wanted to talk to her and make sure she's okay.

"hey." the boy nervously says. "can i sit down?"

she wanted to go off on him, she wanted to slap him, and she wanted to call him an idiot, but she didn't have the motivation or energy for that right now. "sure."

the blonde sits down, copying olivia and pulling his knees up to his chest. "everything okay?"

"just peachy." she sarcastically rolls her eyes.

he looks at her upsettingly. all he wanted to do is hug her tightly and calm her down like she did with him. although he didn't know how to or know what to say exactly. "listen, i'm really sorry about earlier."

olivia ignores his apology, continuing to look up at the stars and the little dipper sarah pointed out earlier.

"i was being and idiot. i understand if you want to slap me or something. it was a bitchy thing for me to say." jj rarely apologized for his actions or words. he always thought he was right even though more then half of the time he was wrong.

"just stop." olivia cuts the blonde off, moving herself closer to him and curling up into his side.

jj looks down at the girl at his side. he was shocked at first, but he put his arm around her and pulls her closer. she needed comfort right now and that's what he was going to give her.

"you were right." olivia admits. just like jj, she also hated admitting things to her friends. "the party sucked."

"what happened?" jj asks protectively. he was ready to beat someone up if he had to.

"rafe happened, topper happened, the kooks happened." olivia sniffles, holding in the sobs that threatened to escape. "i hate them all and i hate that i'm one of them."

jj's face falls at her words. she might come from figure eight, but he loved every inch of her. "you're one of us, don't say that. don't let your mind trick you."

"but i am, jj. you said it yourself. my biggest fear is that you'll view me the way i view myself, and you do." olivia let the tears roll down her cheeks one by one, sitting up so she faced the boy next to her.

at that moment, jj's heart broke. he might think like an idiot and he might think like that or say stupid things like that so many times, but it was only out of anger. he never viewed olivia more then anything but his best friend and a pogue.

"i'm rich." olivia shrugs. "i should be thankful. i should be happy that i come from a family that can afford anything, but i'm not. i hate that so much, but i don't. all my parents care about is money. all the kooks worry about is what shoes to wear to a party, and i envy that. cause i can't just worry about one simple thing like that. i have to worry about the next time my brother bitches me around, or the next time my mom decides to compare me to everyone else, or the next time my dad yells at me for hanging out with pogues. it's never ending."

the blonde stares at her while she chokes on her words. he felt like it was his fault since he didn't think before speaking. now this is what it came to.

"i'm sorry. i shouldn't be throwing it all on you. it's not your fault." olivia wipes away her tears and stares back at the stars.

"don't apologize. please don't apologize." he takes the brunette into his arms, caressing her back gently. "it's not your fault. you're perfect the way you are. if the kooks don't like you for who you want to be, then fuck them."

"you're right. i'm such a baby." olivia rolls her eyes at herself. her emotions made her hate herself even more than she did right now. she had to be strong for jj, after all his problems are bigger than hers.

"you're our baby." jj smiles lightly.

"can you tell me the happy ending?" olivia looks up into his eyes.

"of course."