drabbles [ moon byulyi x kim seokjin ]

emotional breakdown

drabble 3: there's always a certain day for women.

there would be those times.

moon byulyi knew it well. 

one day she'll be up in the morning, happily tossing the toast while drinking on her coffee. one day, she'll be happily dancing with a good up-beat music, and one day- she'll be gloomy and hard to talk to, she'll be isolating herself from everyone else and lose her energy to communicate.

she knows how bad it works, but no one knows it.

she'll reason out that it's the lack of sleep, or lack of food. but in reality, her soul gets tired of wandering around too. 

none of them knew it, except for kim seokjin. 

if byulyi analyses it... only seokjin knows how she feels just by the tone of her voice whenever he calls in the morning, or whenever he'll see her anywhere in events.

and to her, it feels empty some times. it was as if her life was in a series of pattern.

seokjin was one of her worries that she never tells him even if she can talk to him with a lot of things. she feels insecure today, that seokjin might grow tired of her worries someday that he'll never talk to her again.

again, they are in a relationship but she feels like she lacks everything.

and that's what scares her more.

he can easily let go when he wanted to.

he's busy all over the world, with different people, different faces. they share kisses, hugs and cuddles whenever they are alone. 

byulyi sinks herself in the bed, thanking that the rains were drowning her thoughts too.

it's another bad day for her, it's another bad worry. 

she already missed four calls from seokjin, as much as she wants to talk, her mouth was too tired to move, even her limbs to even reach out.

her whole body aches for nothing.

there's no major problem at all.

byulyi is satisfied with her family's happiness and travelling expenses that she could provide, she can treat her friends, go to escape rooms, and make her members happy with herself. but something lacks for her, maybe it was her own ideas for herself. 

yet, she couldn't help but put others first. 

she irritably covers herself with the pillow, thinking she's being selfish again for thinking about it. 

it always starts with a drained energy, until it turns into a pattern of useless worries.

all of her worries were torn down to pieces when she heard the door of her room opening, greeted by a young man as she hears a rustle of a paper cup against a carton. "hey." he mutters, making byulyi sit up in awe of his immediate presence.

"jin-ah." she was surprised, immediately brushing her hair away from her face. "i.. well.. you-" byulyi tried to explain it after jin's eyes landed to the phone in her cabinet, realizing she haven't been answering his calls for a while. 

instead of asking her, seokjin whispers. "i bought cakes and tanghulu." 

surprised, byulyi stares at him. 

"what?" he laughs, switching the lights open before walking out while waiting for her as he muttered. "what are you, a vampire?" he asks, as she heard the familiar sound of the sugary sweet tanghulu being unwrapped.

one of her weaknesses. 

"keep your lights open, byul-ah." seokjin muttered, now looking forward towards her as she lousily leans her frame on the bed room door. "aren't you.. busy?" byulyi asks awkwardly after not responding to him for hours since last night. he replies with a grin, "i'll be away by night because of practice."