LA Underworld |colby brock

21

            Don't play song yet
I woke up in the middle of the night from a nightmare. I was sweating and tears were streaming down my face. I wish it would stop I wish I could go back in time. I slowly peeled myself from my bed and walked to the bathroom.

             "Jeez I look like trash" I mumbled under my breath to myself. I turned the hot water on for a shower. I then walked out to double check if my door was locked and thankfully it was. I walked back to the bathroom and closed and locked the door. I then stripped out of my cloths.

              I just sat and the water run on me. Ever time I'm in the shower I end up turning it from hot to freezing cold. If I stay on hot to long it's weird I have panic attacks in the shower; it never made sense to me. After a few and washing my hair I turned it to cold then washed my body.

               Every time I closed my eyes I could see Gabe and those other guys, touching my skin, invading my body, invading something I never got to give up willingly. They killed something in me at least that's what it feels like. It feels like I will never go back to who I was.

                Before I even realized it I was sobbing with my knees to my chest. My arms were wrapped around my knees and I was sobbing into my arms. I truly felt broken. I want to numb the pain but I don't know how. Please can somebody save me.

Eventually I dragged myself off of the shower floor and wrapped myself in a towel. I didn't dare to look in the mirror. Luckily there was still some cloths in apartment. I grabbed some sweatpants and a big hoodie. The hoodie was Mikes from years ago I forgot I had it.

Part of me wished I gave him a chance I could have avoided all of this. I turn around sighing deciding I should brush through my hair. After I brushed through my hair I threw it up in a messy bun.

I walked into my living room and curled in a ball in a blanket tears still rolling down my face. I decided to text mike.

Me
Hey mike uh any chance you could come to my apartment? Please don't tell a soul if you do.

Surprisingly I got a reply quickly

Mike
Of course L, glad to hear from you. I'm on my way I'll see you in ten. I won't tell anyone.

Mike luckily had a key so I wouldn't have to move to unlock the door. I sat there for a few minutes still crying I decided to play some music. I turned on my Apple Music on my tv and played 'Everybody Dies In Their Nightmares' by XXXTENTACION (play song) i started singing and humming along.

Don't go, don't go to sleep
Don't go, stay up and don't go

Tired of feelin' like I'm trapped in my damn mind
Tired of feelin' like I'm wrapped in a damn lie
Tired of feelin' like my life is a damn game

Bitch really wanna die in the night time
Only time I feel pain, when I'm feelin' love
That's why it's tatted on my face that I'm damn numb

Only time I'm in my mind, when I'm all alone
That's why I'm really never alone in the night time

Change hoes like clothes, I can't get attached
'Cause these hoes fire starters like lit matches

I've been feeling really lost, ducking all attachments

I don't really go outside 'cause I hate traffic
I don't wanna go outside, get caught in traffic
Tired of feelin' like I'm trapped in my damn mind

Tired of feelin' like I'm wrapped in a damn lie
Tired of feelin' like my life is a damn game
Bitch really wanna die in the night time
Tired of feelin' like I'm trapped in my damn mind

Tired of feelin' like I'm wrapped in a damn lie
Tired of feelin' like my life is a damn game
Bitch really wanna die in the night time
Tired of feelin' like I'm trapped in my damn mind

Tired of feelin' like I'm wrapped in a damn lie
Tired of feelin' like my life is a damn game

Bitch really wanna die in the night time
Bitch really wanna die in the night time
Bitch really wanna die in the night time
Bitch really wanna die in the night time, uh
Bitch really wanna die in the night time, uh
Bitch really wanna die in the night time

Don't go to sleep
Don't go, stay up and don't go
Don't go to sleep
Don't go, stay up and don't go
Don't go, don't go to sleep
Don't go, stay up and don't

When the song finished I looked and saw Mike with a sad look on his face standing by my door. He looks like he just woke up. Gosh what time is it? I looked at the clock 7:38. Gosh I feel like a piece of shit waking him up. Wait I woke up at like 2 am I really was in the shower that long.

"Mike, hi oh gosh I'm sorry I didn't realize it was this early until just now sorry for waking you up" I say as he walks towards me.

"Hey girl it's okay i'm glad you called are you doing?" He replied just as he reaches the couch and sits. His arms open for a hug and I jump into them and start sobbing immediately.

We sat there for a while, me just crying in his arms. Him holding me a few tears stray from his eyes.

"thank you for coming Mike and always being someone I've been able to count on for a while I don't know what I would do without you in my life again, thank you" I said as more tears streamed down my face.

"Luna I got your back forever and always okay I love you and I'm always here for you no matter what. Thank you for calling me" Mike replied back.

" I love you too" I said back but in a friendly way and I knew he knew that.

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