Satisfaction (irwin)

Chapter 5: Maybe?

Just to warn there is smut in this chapter so I'll put stars where it starts just in case anyone wants to skip.

*flashback 9 months*

The nightmares were worse than ever before. Every time I got a moment of peace and closed my eyes, I would see his body clouded with the dark blood. It had been months since I found my father's dead body; why did I have to retain the scars? He was the one who wasn't strong enough to deal with his own life and problems. He was the one who left his whole family as soon as things started to go wrong.
This particular night when I woke up, my best friend wasn't beside me and I couldn't manage them alone. I knew Michael was going out tonight but I thought he'd be back by now. Unless he'd decided to stay in the room he was actually supposed to be staying in with Ashton. I checked the time: 3am. There was no way he'd still be out at this time.
Sighing, I decided to go and drag him from the other room because I really needed some proper sleep. I knew as soon as Ashton opened the door that Michael wasn't there. The look on his face was of confusion and exhaustion.
"Michael didn't come here, did he? I asked quietly already looking for a way to escape. Ever since I'd met the boys I'd felt completely comfortable in their presence apart from Ashton. I don't know what it is about him but I never want to engage in conversation for too long, much less stare into his eyes which I just know would be captivating.
"No." He mumbled sleepily, rubbing his head. "I think he found some girl.
Oh of course that's why he's not here. Normally I would be mad but Michael had spent every night with me for the past three months; he needs one off.
"I'm not sleeping tonight then." I muttered, ready to leave.
"Are you okay, Jamie?" Ashton questioned with a worried tone. Shit I didn't want to worry the guy.
"I just have bad nightmares." I said under my breath. "I don't get them when Michael's there."
"Oh." Ashton turned around and looked back into his room. That must have been a signal for me to leave so I shifted away from the door. "Wait." He called before I managed to get away.
"What?" I snapped rather impatiently. Really all I wanted to do was go back to bed and lie down.
"Do you want um me to lie with you?" The question came out of his mouth all in one and I barely heard it. A nervous smile played on his lips as I waited for the answer.
I thought it over for a minute. Yes I did feel uncomfortable with him but I needed to sleep. Also would this help me feel more comfortable around him?
"Maybe?" I finally answered, the word sounding strange to my ears.
"For both our sakes I'm going to take that as a yes." Ashton smiles cheekily and went into his room, before grabbing a key card and leaving again. I followed him down the corridor until we reached my own room. We stood awkwardly outside for a few seconds before I realised I had to actually open the door. Great now I looked like a right idiot in front of him.
The night went by quite nicely and not at all as awkward as I expected. We both pretty much just crawled into bed and slept for the rest of the night. Of course before we fell asleep, Ashton bolted the door. It was thought the best solution as otherwise Michael may burst in hungover in the morning and be slightly pissed off that his two best friends were in bed together.
The next morning as i thanked Ashton, we both decided that as far as we were concerned it never happened. What he didn't know though is that when I woke up that morning, I finally managed to get a good luck at the boy who's spent the night in my bed. I knew that he was good looking; he was Ashton Irwin for gods sake but I never knew how completely gorgeous he was. His curly hair was sticking up from sleep and his mouth was slightly open but the whole effect just made him even cuter. If I wasn't careful I was going to end up with some hopeless crush on this boy.

Every night at 8 pm exactly I went into the lobby of whatever hotel we were staying at and face timed my little sister. The time difference made it 1am at home but that was the time my mother went to bed and I wanted to talk to her alone. I wanted to check up on her without having my mother hovering in the background, worriedly. The night after the Ashton incident I was coming back to my room after our nightly chat when I saw someone say outside my door. The curly hair made him instantly recognisable.
"Ashton?" I asked as I neared him. Slowly, he got up and gave me a sheepish smile.
"Michael brought a girl back to my room." He explained motioning down the corridor. Oh so my best friend was ditching me for a second night. I felt a small catch in my throat as I thought of the lack of sleep that tonight would bring alone.
"Thanks for letting me know." I mumbled, opening my own door with a sigh.
"I wanted to know if you wanted me to stay again?" He asked with a lot more confidence than last night. There was still a creeping blush across his neck. Before I could realise what I was doing I ran my finger along the red colouring. A small gasp came from his lips and I found myself smiling. I grabbed a hold of his hand and pulled him inside. *******Quickly, he had me pushed up against the wall, kissing me deeply. I felt myself relaxing against his touch as I slipped off my t shirt.
"Jamie?" Ashton whispered against my neck. I nodded slowly wanting his lips back on mine. "Do you actually want to do this?"
I answered his question by grabbing the back of his neck and pulling his head to mine. It didn't take us long to be without our clothes and making out on the bed. He removed his mouth from mine and replaced it with his finger. I didn't even have time to wonder what he was doing before he was trailing sloppy kisses down my body. A hand brushed my thigh then ran all the way up it. I felt myself gasp slightly the higher he got. Ashton looked up at the noise. This was a side of Ashton I'd never seen before and I have to say I liked it. I liked it a lot.
"Don't worry, gorgeous." He smirked slowly. "I'm going to make you feel real good." The hand shot right up to where I was needing him. Moan after moan of Ashton's name came from my mouth as his lips moved closer to that place. He replaced his hand with his tongue as he swirled around my sensitive spot. I felt myself losing any resistance and just going with the flow. I seemed to disconnect from any conscious thoughts apart from Ashton. I knew that this meant nothing but right then I honestly did not give a fuck. I really needed this and he was giving it to me. The feeling increased and I finally lost control. I clawed his back as I shot off in release, causing him to chuckle quietly. I barely had time to react before he was over me again. "It's okay baby." He muttered, grinning. "I think that's enough for tonight though."
I nodded happily still in my state of bliss. Right now I would do anything he told me to. I think I may just have become slightly addicted to Ashton Irwin. **********
"Ash?" I shook him gentler in case he had fallen asleep.
"Mm." He replied, sleepily in what I have determined is the cutest voice ever.
"Did you bolt the door?" I already knew that he hadn't. We practically fell into the room as it is; there was no time for any of that.
I sighed and rolled over in order to get out of the bed. There was a creak from the door and a sudden feeling of dread filled me. Michael could be trying to get in and I'm in here in bed with his bandmate.
"That was probably those kids down the hall." Ashton mumbled. "They were running up and down all night last night." I nodded but still went and bolted the door. Just in case.

(Omg guys I'm sorry this smut is so bad it's been so long since I wrote any haha. Anyway vote please :) hows everyone enjoying the story? Xxxx)