Ian isn't looking for trouble, so when he wakes up in a hospital unaware of what has happened to him, he refuses to find out the truth. Why would he want to remember something that might be too much to handle? The past is the past, isn't it?
But the...
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14 July, 08:16 AM
Turnes out I shouldn't have lied. If I haven't, maybe I wouldn't waste so much time going in the wrong direction. Okay, so Nora was just a dream, but I don't believe it came out of nowhere. Don't get me wrong, I'd love to believe that it didn't mean anything and I can move on, just like that, and forget about all of it, but I don't think I should. I blame myself for thinking that something so stupid like time-travel was real and, what's even more stupid, that I was the one that could possess a power like that. Who do I think I am? The Chosen One? God, I'm so vain. And pathetic. But I do think there is a reason why I have those dreams. Oh, yeah, I still have them, I had one tonight. Although, I was the only one in the tent, and I was the one making the potion. It looked like I was the one sending myself back in time. Don't worry, I don't take it so literally anymore, I know it was just a dream, but I refuse to believe it's for no reason at all. There's just no way. Maybe it's not that someone's in danger, and that I am somebody's prince charming that comes to the rescue and saves the day last minute. I think it just means, in the very least, that it is important to remember what happened.
Nora the Friendly Village Witch is a TV show for a young audience. I've watched a couple of episodes on YouTube, you know, for research, to see if I can find anything useful. First of all, nothing rings a bell, and even though my mother says I was kinda obsessed with it as a kid, I could have sworn that was the first time I saw it. It makes it even weirder to know that somewhere deep inside my mind was hidden a memory from ten years ago, and I can't remember what happened two weeks ago. But I guess that's the bright side of it because it would mean that the memories may eventually come back.
The show is about a fourteen-year-old Nora, who after losing her mother in battle and thus becoming the oldest witch in her village, has to fulfill her duty and become The Great Witch of Utake. In the show, every village, every society has its own witch and her magical abilities are meant to help in fights and battles. But Nora doesn't want to be a part of that. She wants to use her magic to help others, not to hurt them. She eventually becomes known as Nora the Friendly Witch. Funny, in my dreams, she was rather mean.
I feel guilty for not explaining to Bobbie last night what's going on. He didn't say anything about what I'd told them yesterday because he knew I wasn't ready, but I know he wants to know. They both do. And I want to talk about it, I'm just so embarrassed that I don't know how to start. We're still in my room, pretending everything's normal. Nicole will be joining us soon. She's texted she's already on her way. Okay, Ian, time to get honest.
10:14 AM
"What if the reason you don't remember is because whatever happened to you is so traumatic that you fight the memories as a coping mechanism?" Nicole knows how to make me feel like everything's going to be okay.
She has a point. I googled it and it turns out it's pretty common for people to lose their memory after having some kind of traumatic experience. It sounds alarming, but it doesn't take a lot to scare me so I don't think "traumatic" necessarily means something bad in my case. I know, I know, who am I kidding? I was beaten and had someone else's blood all over me, I know I won't like what I find out. The false memory of Nora was meant to protect me from the truth, but I just know that no matter how bad it is, I have to know. For some reason, I can tell that it's important.
