The happy and the depressed (lashton)

4~ Caring

4~ Caring

Double update! So make sure you read chapter 3 first.

Dedication: MUSICxxxDREAM because she wanted an update so very badly

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Ashton's POV

I quickly put down the box and pulled down my sleeves. ''I think I'm going to go home now,'' I said pushing past Luke. Before I could even get far, Luke grabbed my upper arm.

''Why Ashton?'' he looked at me with red eyes.

''It doesn't matter. Just please let me go,'' I was on the brink of tears.

''No. Not until you tell me why.''

''I can't Luke. I can't explain why.'' By now we were both crying.

''But you act so happy all the time.'' he questioned.

''It's just that Luke. An act. I pretend to be happy so no body will worry. Not like anybody would care anyway,'' I whispered the last part.

''Ashton don't ever say that again, okay? Lots of people care. You Ju-,'' I cut him off.

''Don't tell me alot of people care Luke. Because they don't. There is a fine line between caring and pity. I don't want pity. So if that's all you going to give me, please let go and let me leave,'' I sniffled.

Luke didn't even answer me, just pulled my into a hug. I stiffened as he wrapped his arms around me, ''I'm not Ash. i really do care about you.'' he said. '' Probably more then I should,'' He whispered, almost so low that I almost didn't here it.

I looked up at him. ''I'm going to help you Ash. I don't care if you want me to or not. I'm not going to let you be sad anymore. And I know I can't make you promise to stop, but will you promise to try? Please, for me, and the other boys?'' he looked desperate.

I nodded my head slowly, and Luke tightened his hold on me, and this time. I let him, I buried my head into his chest and cried. I cried until all I had were small hiccups.

''Sorry about your shirt,'' I rubbed my eyes.

Luke giggled. ''Don't worry about it. I have others.''

''I really should be getting home. What time is it?'' I asked.

''I'm not sure. Somewhere around nine I think,'' Luke shrugged. My eyes widened, and I started freaking out.

''Oh shit,'' I mumbled to myself. ''I really need to get home, My parents are going to be pissed,'' I ran out of the garage, and grabbed all of my things. Before I left, I turned around to Luke. ''Thanks Luke. And can you please please not say anything to Cal and Mikey?''

Luke nodded his head. He looked like he wanted to hug me, but didn't know if he should. I gave him a small smile, and left the house. I know Luke seems like a nice guy, but so do a lot of people. He said he was going to help me, but I'm not ready to trust anybody yet. Or maybe that's the problem. I trust Luke too much already, and I'm scared.

I sped walked a few houses down. I got to my front door and slowly opened the front door. It was quiet. I squeezed through the small opening, and closing the door. I looked into the living room, and saw nobody. I went up the stairs, only to end up back at the bottom of them.

**Triggering/abuse.*

''School ended long ago, boy. Why are you just walking in now?'' my father slurred.

''I-I was at a friends h-house,'' I winced when a boot came in contact with my eye.

''You get home right after school ends, you hear me? Now, you have ten seconds to get up off the floor before I beat the living hell out of you.''

I scrambled up, ignoring the throbbing in my eye. I ran up the stairs, while my father screamed insults at me. I locked my bedroom door and grabbed my friend forever. I placed it on my skin and held it there. There was something stopping me from doing it. ''And I know I can't make you promise to stop, but will you promise to try? Please, for me, and the other boys?'' I made a promise to Luke. But I wont make a lot. Just one or two, I told myself.

But before I knew it, I had red lines up to my elbow. I cursed under my breath, because we had practice tomorrow. I cleaned up my arm, and put the blade back in it's spot. I crawled into bed, not even bothering to change.

Luke's POV

How could Ashton, happy, giggly Ashton self harm? I would have never guessed it. But like he said, it's just an act. I know that there is more to it then what he told me. And I will get it out of him.

I care about him way to much to just forget about it. No matter what happens, I will find a way to make Ashton see hoe good he is.

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Luke knows. *dramatic music*

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