Black Steel and Black Rose (Gajeel x reader)

Why?

(Y/N) P.O.V.

Why do I have these feelings? Why must I feel like this? My heart hurts for him. I love him, but he loves someone else. Why can't I find someone who would actually care about me?

I look at the request board while Sakura talks to Panther Lilly. Apparently, Lilly has been worried about me and talks to Sakura every chance he gets to make sure I'm okay.

I find a job and show it to Mira, "Just be careful with that one (Y/N). Bandits are no joke nowadays."

I nod and walk over to Sakura and Lilly, "So, he does care about (Y/N)? Then why does he hang around Levy and ignore (Y/N) all the time?"

I hide behind a pillar and listen carefully, "He doesn't wanna lose (Y/N) again like all those years ago. They got separated from each other and he doesn't wanna feel the hurt ever again, but he's slowly losing her by ignoring her right now."

My heart started to ache as I listened to them. A tear falling from my eye. I take a deep breath and walked over to them, "Sakura, you ready for another job?"

Lilly looks at me, "Can I join y'all?"

I look at him in shock, "Um... Sure. Just don't tell Gajeel. I don't want him trying to tag along."

He nods and goes to grab his sword. I can see him tell Gajeel something before he heads out the door to wait for me and Sakura, "Ready Sakura?"

She nods and we head out, Lilly following us as we head to the train station. We wait for our train to arrive in silence, but the silence was broken by a familiar voice, "So this is who you're going on a job with, huh?"

We all tense up and turn around to see Gajeel standing there with his arms crossed. I cross my arms as well, "So what if he wants to go with us? Why does it matter?"

He growls at me, "I'm coming with you."

"LIKE HELL YOU ARE!!!" I shout at him, getting really angry with him.

He leans in close to me, "I'm coming with you so get over it."

Why does this have to happen to me? And why now?

"Whatever. Jerk." I turn back around and ignore him.

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The train ride was taking so long. Gajeel was getting motion sick and all I could do was sit there and watch.

"Ugh... I hate this." Gajeel tries to lay down, but it doesn't help.

I sigh and put a flower in front of him, "Here. Eat this. It should help a little."

He looks at the flower and puts it in his mouth, "This tastes like crap."

I shake my head and sigh, "It helps with motion sickness. So get over it." I close my eyes and cross my arms. As I relax, I feel something on my leg. I look down and see Gajeel laying his head on my lap, "What are you doing?"

"Shhh... Let me rest." He nuzzles his face into my stomach and falls asleep.

'You haven't done this since we were kids you jerk.' I sigh and close my eyes again, "This sucks."

Why do I love him?